Help me hear again

Hey people , first of all i want to apologise if i bother you,and for my bad english,  but this is desperate moves of an desperate man. Im Goran and im 30 years old. I have lose my parents in war in ex yugoslavia and im orphan almost all my life. Have no family and have no home. When i dont have any job i live like homeless , and when got some work i rent a house where i live and pay the bills. The biggest problem is my sickness.Its called Oto Sclerosis and i have it on both ears Actually i have no pain , but my hearing is much damaged (i hear only 21 % on left and 18 % on right ear), and if i dont make medical treatment soon i can lose my hearing and my posibility to speak forever, cause its same nerve damaged. Medicine treatment for both ears cost above 4 000 euros in best Hospital in region, Belgrade Army-Medicine Academy .

I live in poor country Bosnia where i cant earn money, or save that money for my medicine treatment. Here is soo much corruption, birocratie and other things which stoping me all the time on my way to make my life better.   I dont like when ASK FOR MONEY , im more happy if i can find someone,an good man or good people who can help find any type of job so i can earn some money and pay the bills for my medicine treatment which will give me some time before is too late for me. Im 30 years old and my life is sad and full of bad news , and will be more sad when my sickness gone worst. This message i wrotte , i know is boring for you, but is last chance for me, i really dont know what else to do, where to go, what to ask...im an really desperate boy. Many people who speak with me, they say like : Goran dont vorrie u will be fine , at least u dont have pain...... but they dont know that my pain is not physical pain, my pain is most psychologisch. I got that pain every time when they reject me for any job ( cause they notice that i cant hear as well ) , when i cant make normal conversation with girls, with mates , when someone laught on me or when they make jokes with me. And for the end i want to say thanks to all people with big heart who find time and posiblities to help other people in this hard times for everyone.  I cant offer you nothing more in return  than my friendship and my loyality Thank you for your time. [email protected]