Trying not to give up

Hello, Ths is probably the 2nd. most difficult thing I have ever done in my life, as you read further you will know about the 1st hardest thing I have ever lived through. My request is for 5,000 so I can move onto some property that is available to me. I will be able to live in a small trailer and have an opportunity to go back to work. I have actively sought work and moved from place to place doing odd jobs in an attempt to keep a roof over my head and be productive. At the end of the month I will be homeless. I would like to share with you how I came to be in this position.

It s not easy to pour my soul out...in hopes that someone will assist. The past  7 years I have experiened divorce, loss of employment.Through doing odd jobs I was able to buy some stock and a few pieces of equipment to sell balloon bouquets and gifts. I was able to buy a used RV to live in not the Ritz but it was clean and dry. Right when I was seeing a little light at the end of the tunnel tragedy struck my family. The girlfiend of my grand daughters father was accused of molesting my grand daughter. I have been taken to the brink of insanity, unless you hve been through something like this you wll never know what it does to the very fabric of your being. So mama bear (me) went into action to try and protect her and to support my youngest daughter. All of the services came to our aid. CPS, Womens Crises Center, law enforcement.

My training as a victims advocate helped me to be able to assist my daughter through this grave tragedy. We could not afford a lawyer so we had to research and file documents to keep my grand daughter protected. It was not easy. My daughter is a single mom, she takes excellent care of her daughter. She has always worked and paid her bills. Through all of this I threw what meager resources I had in to pay legal fee's, gas for getting to court, babysitting. What ever it took to not let my two babies fall. All I had left was my RV so I sold it to help out....because of the mental strain on my daughter she was not able to work without breaking down and crying, she lost valuable hours at work but she stayed strong and fought through it.

So I chipped in to help her to make the rent. She made it through, kept her job and we were successful in keeping a sexual assault protection order in place. I am not looking for sympathy...I simply want you to understand how I arrived where I am today. My mental state was fried...I was a walking zombe. It helped to know that they were now safe. Reality is kicking me hard. I have been living from place to place working odd jobs and living where ever I can find something affordable. To add insult to injury......I was still hopefull becuse I had my back stock of supplies, balloons,ribbon, equipment to make ballon bouquet, floral arrangements, gift baskets Ect. all boxed in the truck of my car.

My car was broken into and well they struck the mother load. The theives took everything. I had enough supplies and equipment that I could have rented a booth and made funds that would help me to get back on my feet. Now all I have left is my car and my personal clothing. I am staying from place to place, I no longer have a home. As a grand mother and mother I could barely cope.........I guess taking care of the two of them help me to keep what sanity I had left. This was my ray of sunshine because I at least would of had a way to make an income and now it is all gone. I am at the end of my perverbial rope. Someone suggested that I come on this website and tell my circumsatnce in hopes of making a fresh start. I am not looking for a hand out or charity. My circumstances is dire to say the least, I hope someone out there will hear my words and know that I am not  begger or dead beat and offer some assistance. Thank you for listening.

Regards & Blessings