The Love of My Life

Hello everyone Im Adam. Im a hopeless romantic that throughout my life I either couldnt catch a break or I was as fault in any of my relationships. Ive seen allot of good charities on this site for many different reasons. So I thought to myself, why not for love? I mean there is love behind every charity here. But why not for the sake of love. Again I remind you that I'm a hopeless romantic! Lol!

Now before I get to what this is for, I need to tell my story. The story im about to tell seems like it wouldve came straight from a lifetime movie! But I assure you all, every piece of what im about to tell you is true. Now I cant go into every detail because some of what has happened is well....kinda personal. But i will tell you as much of it as i possibly can.

I moved to texas at the age of 37. I wanted to try and have a fresh start. My father lived here and I figured that after not seeing him for almost 18 years, it would be a good opportunity to not only get a new start but to also start a relationship with my father that i never thought i would ever get the chance to get.

After a few months I was hired at a 7-Eleven near where i resided. Not the best of jobs but it was better than nothing. I had worked there, never calling off a single day and always staying over, until i got let go in March of this year. Throughout my time there, there was a peticular customer that just caught everyones eye. Now i dont know if it was the fact that she was just so beautiful, (the pictures of the female is her) or from what she was wearing. She always dressed in short dresses and skirts and what i later found out she made allot of her own clothes. The way she dressed, allot of my other customers would assume that she was a hussie of some sort. Of course the way some people like to gossip, I've heard quite a few stories about her.

Anyways many months have passed. She was a loyal and regular customer. I was seeing her almost everynight when i was working that day. Now after talking to her almost everyday for 7 months i made my own assumption about the type of person she was. I thought that she was a club girl who liked to go out on a night on the town on a regular basis and concluded that she was a flirt! So in Feb of this year i decided to talk to her more than an employee to customer type of conversation. I will never forget what she told me that night. Unfortunately i cant repeat it but it further proved what i had assumed how she was! So after a few phone conversations and phone texts we decided to hang out together as friends. By the end of that 1st night, i found out real quick that everything that i thought she was like..... I was completely and utterly wrong! She was a woman of very imbedded morals and wasnt one to go out at all or anything i thought to be true. She had completely surprised me. She is the same age as i am and for only standing about 4'10"-4'-11", she knew how to talk to make herself appear bigger than she was! Lol. She is such a firecracker!

After a few more weeks had gone by i found out that she had a boyfriend. I was a bit upset at the time and confronted her about what i had found out. She looked at me and said that i already knew that. That i had talked to him at work and that he was a regular customer. She had thought that i had already known. After a few more q/a's the matter was settled and I decided to just be friends. Well later on i had heard some stories going around about her boyfriend that he is crazy, and a horrible person. That he peeps in on her trying to listen through her bedroom windowis to see if she is cheating on him or what not. Also things like he would make her sit in the backseat of the car cuz he was to lazy to clean the front seat. That he was a drug addict and just several other obscene instances. Ive always known him as very soft spoken and very mannerly. After a little while of hearing these things i thought that if these things r true then y would she put up with this guy? So again i confronted her about what i was hearing.

I told her that i know its not my buisiness but..... After everything i had presented to her, she confirmed every bit of it. I asked y do you stay with this guy? And that is when i found out all about her living arrangement. Her bedroom was and still is a walk in closet. She lives with an 80 year old man. She is his live in caretaker. The older gentleman pays her out of his own pocket only being on social security. She doesnt get paid very much at all cuz the senior says that room and board is part of her check. He doesnt have allot of money after rent and other bills. I thought to myself, y would someone live like that? 2 people in a studio apt. Then she told me about her past. She was homeless before working for the old senior. And shes been doing it for about 8 years. That job as a live in caretaker is what saved her from the streets. She feels as though she owes him her livelyhood.

I was shocked! I didnt know what to say. This beautiful woman has had such a hard life and so many unlucky breaks, not only did she remind me of myself but she was able to keep herself and everyone around her in such high spirits regaurdless of what life threw at her. She is like no one i have ever met before. She is such a nice and respectful person with a beautiful and free soul and spirit. She definately one of a kind. Now i know i had no buisiness saying what i said next but i had asked her to leave her unstable boyfriend and to be my girlfriend and promised her that i would treat her like a woman is supposed to be treated and talked to. Now at the time i could barely take care of myself let alone another person and she knew that. She looked at me with tears welling up in her eyes and told me that she cant. I asked why? Was i just not your type or not your cup of tea? She said no you are absolutely my type. I didnt understand what the problem was then. Then she said that he gives her money every month. Its not much money but the little bit that he gives her she depends on. Ive never felt so bad for someone. I wanted to gix this, i wanted to help but how?

A few weeks after that i had lost my job due to being guilty by association. She got word of it and called me to go over to her coworkers apt. He was the power of attorney for the old senior she took care of. I had met her there and she said that i am going to stay there. I didnt argue but i said that i dont have any money to pay for me staying there. She said that is ok. All i have to do is just make sure that he was ok everyday and to make sure no one would take advantage of him. No rent needed to be paid as of right now. So i agreed and that is where i stayed til the beginning of may.

Throughout me living there her and i spent almost everyday together while her what i now know abusive boyfriend was at work. We went everywhere together. If u seen me, u seen her and visa versa. We had never crossed that friendship line. She was faithful only to her bf. Regaurdless of that, if u spend enough time with someone and it quickly became more than anything physical. We began to fall in love with each other. I was first right off the bat to tell her that i loved her. I wrote her a very romantic poem and sat her down and read her the poem and put my heart out on my sleeve and told her that i loved her. I told her that i dont want her to say it back just because she felt obligated now. She sttod up and walked to the restroom and stood there. I culd hear her sniffling. She turned around and said something about stupid feelings and told me that she loved me too!! That was our first real passionate kiss.

A few more weeks had gone by and her and i had made plans on her leaving her boyfriend. I had a job coming up that i was to start. Everything was going perfect. All she had to do that night was tell her boyfriend that it was over then she was to come see me and we could start our lives together. So i waited and waited. 1 hr became 2 hrs late to 3 hrs, 4 hrs, 5.....1 day, 2 days, and on the 3rd day back she came to the apt i was in. I had already lost my job opportunity because i couldnt go due to a broken heart. I wasnt being very responsible. When she came in she walked up to me and i could barely look her in the eye. She had apologized to me and that her boyfriends parents basically kept them at their home until they at least tried to work things through and remain together. I was so so crushed. I didnt even want to hear anymore of what she had to say. I laid back in bed and she covered me and kissed me on my head and apologized again. I knew that if i was to get over this i had to distance myself from her to get over her. So i moved back in with my father. I was doing good getting over her. In fact it was over a month and i was almost over her when a certain song played. The funny thing is that this song playing reminded me of every feeling i had for her but we have never listened to that song together. But the words of that song, "Love on the Brain" brought back every feeling back. So like the romantic i am i sent her the song via text and also texted " this song reminds me of you". That song ignited both of our flames again.

I started going back to see her and talk again. We wasn't like before, we didnt cross no lines again. From June until presently, we still see each other but she still has that same abusive boyfriend. She is now ready to really leave him. I would love for her to move in with myself so we could spendthe rest of our lives together. We have been through so much together, things that i haven't mentioned like when i was in the hospital for awhile due to having seizures. Alsoi got a condition called "brain zaps". She stuck through it all with me. All my life I've been looking for that one person where you can fully and completely trust, and no matter how long we've been together, each time we see each other, i get excited like a little child, i get excited like its our very first time together.

Now for the reason why im telling my story, finally! Lol. Her birthday is coming up on nov 16th. And unfortunately right now i dont have allot. Because of the seizures i was out of work for a long while and have to start over again. I have my own money for myself and my bills. What im asking for is funds to buy the most sweetest, nicest, most extrordinary person that i have ever met, an engagement ring so i can ask her to marry me. I want to spend the rest of my life together with her. She is just so amazing! If the donations go above the goal i have set. I will use the funds so she can go see her children in california for a week or however long we can. I want to let her know how it feels to be not just loved but truly loved unconditionally!

She has no idea about any of this. I would love for her to at least one time in her life to feel like a queen. Shes never really had anything but she still carries herself as though nothing is wrong. Shes a very strong woman and she deserves a fresh start herself.

If you made it this far, then thanks for reading my story. I appreciate each and every one of you for sharing your time to at least read this and thank you to those who have donated. Again the pictures i put up are all her and i. Thankyou again and have a blessed day everyone!