I am depressed by my chronic acid reflux condition - gerd. I don't have much pain but my main symptom is horrendous bad breath accompanied with other minor symptoms like bloating, food stuck sensation, etc which don't bother me as much. The bad breath crushes me to the core. It is so bad that people will react and it becomes a distraction for both parties when i am having a conversation. Sometimes i don;t know whether i should continue the conversation or not, sometimes i am depressed at that instant and speak less. This condition worsens since slightly more than a year ago. I couldn't take it anymore. If it happens once in a while, i still am able to take it. But it is almost everyday. Mentally it is a torture. I have to put on a front that i am ok when they react. But within me, i am crushed. It affects my self-esteem issues severely and i have some self-esteem issues before already but not as bad as now with this symptom. I have tried everything reasonable because i am desperate but to no avail (different specialists, already on gerd medication, natural remedies, health supplements, joined facebook gerd groups for information, TCM, even meditation and church healing) I have planned my suicide a few times and i think that's it. I am going to do it next month (i really hope it is a success because there is no way i am able to bear with this anymore) Every day i have to communicate with people. Sometimes even breathing, the smell can reach few seats away. This is nightmarish.
Now why i set up this campaign? I thought of a last resort that i may be able to bear with this condition if i have some freedom and do something meaningful with my life of despair. And sexual crime always hits me hard when i read the news. I don't want to spend a lot of time and money on getting a degree in psychology, counselling or studying for an accreditation course in sexual education (some areas of which i am not interested such as helping in sexual health or marriage counselling). To be honest, i don't know where to start with. I just think that every child or student should be educated on how to recognize a behavour of sexual predator and what to do if they are sexually assaulted. And i have an immense feeling of sadness when i read news of rapists raping and murdering the victims like they are pieces of meat just for their minutes of sexual pleasure. I also would like to have advocate education to the public (mostly man) on self-control. To potential perpetrators, lessons of empathy may be hard to touch them (since perpetrators are selfish) but maybe it works by showing the path of destruction they are going to go if they commit such a crime i.e. being prosecuted by law. There is a news of a male student committing suicide after molesting girls. I feel that he can be counselled and educated to change such behavior and go back to the right path.
I am just giving a try to raise funds here. I don't splurge.