rock bottom

I am ashamed to have to do this, but I need help and don't know where to turn.

Unfortunately I have never had anyone to help. Had a hard childhood and even worse from then on, not going into detail as I'd be here all day.

In 2005 I was first diagnosed with depression,from then on my life has been a daily struggle, depression worsening every day. I became so low , I couldn't cope and started having major anxiety problems and panic attacks.

My husband had to give up work as i couldn't go out of the house without being sick  or fainting, which left us absolutely broke, all the while I was getting lower and lower and in June2013 I attempted suicide. Thank god my hhusband found me. After that I started counselling and although I'm no where near "better" but I feel quite a lot better. The problem is now that I can feel myself slipping back into the deep depression. I feel so guilty as my 3 kids have to go without everything because my husband had to give up work to look after me.

The reason I need to raise the money is so I can pay my housing arrears and try to give my babies a good Christmas, I have the best children in the world, although they don't have the latest  stuff they are so grateful for everything they do get and never moan, I am extremely proud of them and they deserve to finally get something they really want. I took myself off benefits and started a full time job, unfortunately the job was so stressful I couldn't cope and had a breakdown.

I was then 'let go' and subsequently I was put back on benefits. Any questions please feel free to ask.