Until the age of 23, I was a bright, driven, intellectually curious young woman, with nothing less than an "A" in school. I won many mathematics, biology and chemistry competitions and I was on my way to medical school. Then, as a means to cope with my social anxiety, I started self-medicating with alcohol. Insidiously, the alcohol became a panacea for every emotional anguish and I soon became the girl who was never stopped drinking.
School and work didn't mean much anymore, my only drive was to ensure that I had alcohol at all times. I was drinking non-stop, way too much for any human being and my life turned dark. Because of the very heavy drinking, I started having withdrawal seizures if I tried to stop or if I went on without alcohol for too long. My life was in danger; I could have died either from alcohol poisoning or from withdrawal. I was by all accounts a helpless case. At 30, I had turned myself from an intelligent, driven person into a brainless booze guzzling monster.
And then one day things changed. I was going through one of the worst withdrawals, at home and I felt death. It was the coldest, emptiest feelings I have ever had, extremely humbling and eye opening. From that moment on, I started fighting to save my self, my integrity and my brain.
Today, after 1.5 years of sobriety, I am going back to school to study. Because of past mistakes, I have to study 1 year part-time, on probation, which makes me ineligible for bursaries. Therefore, I am here, humbly asking for your help in making my dream come true. I want nothing more at this point than to study Psychology and eventually help people who were in the same situation where I was.