I'm Derence, currently 22 living in Singapore. I'm not living in a fortunate family. Both my parents were working since I was a kid and thus, I'm emotionally and physically neglected. Parents had issue and were always quarreling, my family nearly fell apart. Father is really verbally abusive to me, destroying my confidence since I was a kid. Mother suffered from depression from the constant stress. To be honest, our monthly household income is just enough.
Just a year back I knew I had issue, I don't feel happy, I feel alone, I don't feel as though there is a meaning in life, I feel no one really love and care for me. I went to see a psychologist myself. I was diagnosed with depression and GAD. I'm suffering from a really bad insomnia, waking up 5 to 6 times a night from nightmares of being abandoned and betrayed, to being beaten up. I feel like giving up. I'm in pain and this pain just wouldn't stop. There were moments and thoughts of suicide,
Psychologically speaking, I'm in an extreme deficit emotionally and physically. I wake up in pain every morning and my doctor couldn't understand what causes such a pain. My doctor recommended me to go for a Psychodynamic Therapy that will be 4 to 6 months down.
Recently, I've secured a slot in my local university but the school fees are too expensive for my family to afford. My father doesn't want to support me financially, all my medical bills, school fees, food, everything.
I'm in a desperate situation and not only the school fees are expensive, I'm psychologically in pain, I'm sick yet I have to pay for the medical bills. I couldn't bring myself to work due to my medical condition and was fired 1 month back. I don't know who else to seek help from...
Living in Singapore is tough, I have always thought of migrating out. Everything is just too expensive and stressful.
My plan is to get into my university (Accountancy in SUSS) that will be 4 years long. While I'm at it, I wish to slowly build myself up and get myself out of the pain I'm in. It will help me get a better job in the future to support my family and myself.
This is the main reason I'm setting this gofundme campaign. I hope to be able to find some financial support for my school fees and medical bills. I want to get better and live life like normal. Any form of support will mean a lot to me. It will help me get better in life. Please help me out.