Dear donators and non-donators,
As much as I want to keep this away from a pity story it still might end up as one. This fundraiser is about my life, and my struggles. I feel really self-centered writing this, but it's because I have no choice and no where else left to turn. Hopefully you would be able to atleast give some sort of donation from reading my stories as a "series of unfortunate events". I'm asking for any little bit that would be possible to be donated, or any help as to a job offering or anything. I live in a small city, in the west coast, and teenagers here don't usually excel in much, the average usually just stays and works at all the minimum paying jobs. This being said, I've been applying everywhere I could go and I've had no luck. Luckily I am currently able to stay within my parent's house, but it feels like the time will soon come to an end. The following stories, and events might seem a bit crazy and out of control, but I don't know what would happened if my family would go to the authorities. There's alot of deaths, and stabbings around here. From the stories I've heard, the city in which I live used to have a dead body in it every other night. As you can tell, I don't know what to do and how to proceed in life.
I live in a family of 8. Our family isn't like any normal family or even close to functional(at the least I could say it's because one person tears us apart). I'm second to the youngest. I just turned 18 half a year ago. I'm soon leaving out for college in a month to study environmental engineering, but it seems like I have to move out sooner than that. I used go to a good high school orientated around engineering and I recently graduated. I focused most of my time towards learning and studying, and my family; so, there would usually be no time left to get a job. I wanted to have a job when I was 15 and a half but didn't know how exactly to accomplish it. (Another hint why things are so rough. My father. He's a bit on the not-so-much-father-figure side of fathers. Example 1: One time he told me to do whatever I can to get ahead in life. To use my resources and any help I could get. When I asked him for help, he told me he can't. I asked him many times and some times were about borrowing money. Borrowing because I can't ask for money or else he would complain about not having enough money. So, I have to borrow money and pay him back. The problem is, he still complains when I ask to borrow money. Then goes on to tell me all his problems and how no one listens to him. THEN when I try to go for someone else for help, he hates me and tells me not to and that I should had asked him. What a very fatherly man, right?) But, it's not like my whole family is bad, there are some good in this mess. I.E. My mom, and pretty much everyone but my father, and middle sister.
I don't want to get offtrack again because there have been many stories/events/problems with my middle sister. I'll just call her Angie. Angie, is the worst of the worst. She has constantly been tormenting my family member's lives. There once was a time when we all got along as a normal family, but that time was my father was an alcoholic and domestic violence towards my mom did occur. But somehow it ended, when I was about 4 or 5. Then new problem arose. Angie. She's the girl who dropped out of middle school, or ninth grade. I can't recall which one. She would be involved with graffiti, and drugs. As of right now, she's ~24 with two kids. One living with his dad, and another living here in our house, under the care of my parents. The only problem is that, she's living here as well. She starts problems and harrasses my mom and then goes to my father, and he doesn't do anything but tell us to calm down and further complain about her. He says "let her do what she wants, she doesn't want to leave so what could we do?". That's the kind of "man" he is. When my little sister and I got angry at Angie for not taking care of her son while she was under this roof, she got mad and came at us and bit my little sister. What did my father do? Nothing. When I got mad because Angie was harrassing my little sister, and I told her things that she would tell my little sister. What did my dad do? Nothing. When my mother argues with my sister, what does my dad say? He laughs and says why dont they both just go and kill each other already. This is getting redundant but it's the easiest way to explain the past problems really briefly.
There has also been a few incidents where I have complained about her ruining our lives (my mom's, my little sister's, and her son's) and what does my father do? Kick me out of the house and tells me to leave because I didn't give any money and she would give 20 dollars a month to him to help out. Did i mention she would also eat most of the food because she's always high. She would take showers hours long, and expect her son to always be taken care of and fed while she sleeps all day. She would also complain about not having the wifi, whenever I would change the password.
Things have not always been like this. She was gone for a long time, because she would live on the streets and do drugs. But she's always been the same person to us, she would just read books and do drugs, and sleep, and be on her phone. Play loud music and yell. She would tell her son to shut up and verbally abuse anyone who gets in her way. She would tell me that she's going to tell the cops that I hit her, and left her bruises and I'll be the one locked up because I have no signs of injuries on me. She also says that she'll call her "homies" to come and kill me, and destroy the little 1989 carolla fx I drive that's all beat up and turns off like half of the time. But it's the only car I could use.
I know there's a lot of questions as to why don't we do anything? Well my parents don't do anything and just say she'll get what she deserves. But me, my little sister, and her son aren't getting what we deserve. Her son is learning bad words, and I've had to discipline him. Today he was crying because his mom was telling him things and I was holding him so he wouldn't go and do anything or continue to argue. (By the way he's only 4). You know what his mom said? "I'll tell the cops you were choking my son, and he was screaming for you to let him go" I just don't know what to do and how things will go. I do know that my other siblings that are older already have their lives started. two out of the other three have children already and too busy with their lives to help out. I also feel like it would be a burden to them if i were to ask for help.
In conclusion, I have parents who don't do anything about my crazy sister. She just torments and harrasses me, my mom, my little sister, and her own son. I won't be able to live here any longer because I know she keeps a knife with her in her closet, and has threatened to call her friends from the street to come and kill me and beat me up. My mother says I could take the little car, but I honestly don't know where to go and how to proceed. Even any advice would be useful.
Thank you for your time.