My student trip to europe,a dream come true,saving me from depression

I'm a 18 year old girl from Natal,Brazil,I deal with depression and ocd since i'm 10 due to bullying in school,I tried to commit suicide when i was 15,my dream is to join a student exchange abroad (perhaps i could realize my dream of studying fashion design there) I have friends in The Netherlands,England,Iceland,Finland and France and i can stay with them,i've been studying english for it since my pre teens,but right now i don't have the flight ticket's money for it,the dollar is costing a lot to us right now,my parents recently divorced what made my depression get a little bit worse,i'm lonely in my city and I don't have many friends,a trip to join university in europe could give me some sense of what real life is and the opportunity to make new friends and also be close to the ones i have there,what would save me from depression,any amount would help me a lot as i don't have much money.