Mother in Financial Predicament

I lost my both parents, then i lost my 2 younger sisters in 2018 and 2019, so both younger sisters left their kids behind.

I am married with 4 children they are all boys, life is now that my husband got fired from his job, life is becoming difficult day by day. I lost focus at work as i am financially feeding a big family yet i don't even get grant cause i am told i am a teacher but the kids are my late sisters are orphans, its so bad that day in and day out my kids don't even have food to eat. i have a baby i can't even afford to by nappies, clothes or food.

As i have to pay rent of R8000pm because we are too many i have to stay in a bigger place. This stress is affecting my health i am hypertension and sugar diabetes worse i can't even afford medical aid anymore cause my finances are so bad. My kids and my sisters kids are sickly due to malnutrition they don't eat proper food.... They don't eat well.

Things are so bad that i go door to door to borrow money from people just to make a living day to day basis, when payday comes i have to pay back the money i borrowed with interest and end up staying with nothing, i can't even to buy my kids school shoes, school materials even just to pay their school fees.

This situation is affecting me so much that i don't enjoy life anymore but for the sake of my kids.

My elder son finished matric last year he wants to further his studies but because there's no money i can;t send him to do the course that he wants to do. He sits at home ending up doing who knows what.

So this life is really not worth living as a mother to raise children who will go to bed with the empty stomach.I feel as a mother my kids are struggling so much that they start stealing, one of my sisters kids who is under my care was caught stealing food at Spar not to steal to be funny but to eat. This has happened many times until he started taking the other brothers until they were all caught and police was called and myself that''s when i discovered how bad the situation really is.

So i really pray for help out there just for my family and to pay all my debts...