Hi. I'm a 34 year old woman that has been sick for almost a decade. I take heavy narcotics for kidney pain and rarely leave the house for fear of my immune system making me ill. I spend probably ten to fifteen or more days not even leaving the bedroom. I do receive a small amount of money from long term disability but it's barely enough to get by. I need to get new glasses because my eyes are getting worse and the narcotics are ruining my teeth but I can't afford to see a dentist. Both of these are second to the fact that I'm not allowed to take the bus or train because of my immune disorder and my car was a old peice of junk eight years ago when it was given to me to get to the doctor or hospital. My car is likely to crap out any day with all it's problems. I have used every spare penny over the years to keep it running but it's just beyond what I can afford now, plus the mechanic says the repairs are more than the car is worth. In the summer now the car is dangerous for me because there is no cool air and the heat makes me very ill. I really hate asking for help as I worked from thirteen to take care of myself. It's hard to rely on the kindness of others. I am hoping that I have some karma built up over the years from doing what I can to give back. I forego my birthday gift every year so that I can have a sponsor child instead. I give a dollar a week to the food bank and my friends say that I am very considerate and kind. I don't know why I feel the need to defend my worth. It's just hard to ask for help from strangers. Before I became ill I did six years of university where I was training to be a crisis counsellor. Since I can no longer train or work I still audit the courses by reading the course material that is available free online. When I feel well enough to leave bed I will practice cooking for family and friends or do crafts such as making homemade chapsticks or painting. Of course I can only buy tiny amounts of supplies each month so some months I just draw. My friends have a hard time understanding my not being able to come out to bars or for dinner at restaurants. It's hard for them to understand that not only is it dangerous for my immune system for me to go out but I just can't afford it. Plus my kidney pain is there 24/7 and I don't complain when I'm with people so they assume I feel fine. While it's been difficult to give up my dreams of working for the Red Cross I still have ambitions. I will never accept that I won't get better and continue to look for treatments to try and doctors to see. I would be incredibly grateful for anything that you can give. Thank you again and please email me if you want to know more about my situation. Please email me if you donate and you are comfortable with me mailing you a thankyou letter.