During my adolescence, I had severe depression and anxiety disorder. Because I like a girl, which is almost crazy in China, I am isolated, bullied, everyone is accusing me, I once had no hope for the world, tried to commit suicide, but after I saved a person's life, when his family thanked me, everything changed. I found hope of living, which may seem ridiculous, but helping others to hear them say thank you to me seems to be the meaning of my life. So I want to help others, want to live hard. I study hard and try to be a doctor, but the student loan has made me bear a lot, and it is difficult for me to bear the cost of volunteer activities.