I have been struck by an evil disease, addiction to pain medication; and it has turned my life upside down, a living hell. I had a great career for 17 years, life was good. But I had a serious problem with my right knee and leg and needed a scary surgery. Before the surgery, I wore a brace for a year, even in bed, just to keep my leg together. After the surgery, I needed lots of pain medication…… and then….. got addicted. The medication ruled me. I became reclusive, no longer smiled much or laughed. I was dead inside and just trying to hide my misery to the outside world. It has brought me tremendous paralyzing fear, to the point I couldn’t move or function.
A few months back, I knew I just couldn’t live this way anymore, because it’s not living. I hated taking the pills, but not taking them became tremendously painful. I didn’t know what to do. I no longer have a job, nor insurance, so I am not able to go to an addiction facility. Instead I went to a doctor and under his supervision started a weening/detox regiment. I have come a long way, but I am not quite there yet, but very close. I have friends who help and check on me. But now, I do not have any more money and have no means to pay my mortgage or gas bill or anything. While I know this is absolutely the right thing to do, I am so afraid I am going to lose my house and get in a lot of trouble with any company I owe. Please help. Please help to just get me thru this month, until I am off this terrible medicine and have regained my energy, can stand up straight and tall and get out in the world again, to know what it feels like to laugh and smile. Detoxing is very, very hard. Very painful. Even standing up is hard. It’s the worst thing I have ever gone thru.
If you have this disease or know someone that does, then you know what I have been going thru. It truly is a nightmare. Drugs are a terrible thing. They destroy lives. Please don’t take them, if you can avoid it. It never has a happy ending. My request does seem selfish, because it is just for me, meanwhile, there are villages of people starving, with no water and riddled with disease. A friend suggested I do this and so I thought I would give it a try. Anything to help. Your donation would be an incredible gift. Please help me to change my life and get thru this horrific period that has plagued our country. I will forever be grateful!!!!