My name is Robert,
I am in dire need of any financial assistance no matter how small.
At an early age I was already working to help the family. I was the eldest and I need to support my growing family as my mother's and father's salary were not enough.
Despite the hardships, I did my best to fund my edulcation in college and graduated.
The thing is that I am so used to being relied upon and I am so used to solving problems myself.
Now, I feel like I no longer have anyone to turn to and my financial problems have become so big that I really don;t know what to do.
My father in law is a stroke patient that continually needs care.
My mother is retired and can only fends for herself
My wife is pregnant
I am seriously drowned in debt and my salary can no longer cover it. My salary has always been given to the family. I didn't even have an allowance for 6 months now.
I accumulated more debts because there were family problems that needed money like my father's medical bills, my kid's medical bills,me supporting my wife when she was still looking for a job and so on. It all led to this and I thought that I can manage everything, but the interests of my loans keeps piling up that it's already hard to recover from it.
I don't have any vices, only a photography hobby which was also put aside because of these hardships. I already sold my wedding ring and my camera that brought me great joy. I am only a simple person with simple dreams in life.
I collected huge sums of loans that I can no longer pay them and these loan companies are all threatening me to go to jail and shame me to all my families and friends. They keep calling and keep harassing me to pay my dues when I no longer have any money to pay them.
My problems have come to its highest peek. I tried to reach out to people that I helped before but they turned me away.
Now I feel like I don't really have anything and I am already thinking about killing myself to make all of this go away!
The only thing that's holding me back is my kid and my loving wife which is also doing her best to find ways to help me.
I thought about coming here a thousand times and ask for help because it's not like me. but, I don't really have a choice and might as well try.
Please also forgive me for not showing my face in my post since its embarrassing to show my face as a suicidal and afraid of any social persecution.
I appreciate you reading my long post.
Aside from financial help, any words of encouragement is highly appreciated as well.
God bless you all