HRT

First of all : The minimum fundraising amount on this website is 260$, my goal is 100$, not 260$.
I always felt as if I was not in the body I was supposed to be in, an 18 year old boy at the moment

To fixate my body, I started DIY HRT (Hormone Replacement Therapy)

Unfortunately I can not longer finance it because we are getting kicked from our apartment because someone bought the whole block to rent it for way more.

My mum is also out of budget, and can't assist me financially, she's struggling to find a new apartment for us.

I'm still a student, therefore there is no way of earning money for me.

In the future I'd like to live happily in a body I wished for and tried so desperately to look like and now I'm getting depressed because of how ugly I still am.

I'd like to fundraise money to complete my dream and my future, to look like what my soul wants me to look like.

Please do not judge me for me wanting to live this way, everyone else lives the way they are happy, or at least they try to, everyone have dreams.

I'm afraid to go outside, I can't socialize, everyone looks at me as if I was a monster, and it makes me sad knowing it is true and that no one will accept me as the person I am right now in this body.

Once you start doing DIY HRT, you can't just stop or your body will start giving up.

It's much like going to the dentist, with the exception that you don't play with powerful hormones there.

You can't just stop at half of the progress, you can't get your teeth filled in only by 50% or it will affect your life for some time in some way, with hormones your whole life, resulting in physical and mental pain that won't be fixed because time passes and our body changes.

I'd really appreciate all the help of dear people assisting me in achieving my dream, it would mean a lot to me to look like I'm actually somebody.