Hidden tears

I am terminal with end stage of emphysema, chronic asthma and hypertension. I control it buf desperate to see further than my room. The only possible way is a mobility scooter, portable oxygenator and some spending money. After 9 years i have used my capital and for thd last two years now try live on a tiny endowment policy i get monthly.to which i cannot pay rent or food for nonth let alone a car. As my last bucket list i would love to go to a shopping mall, see the mountaind and mostly smell the sea and touch beach sand again. In addition I want to record an my life time of iriginalsongs and get my completed book self published. I dont know how long i have left but 9 years ago my pulmologagist saix 6mnths to 3 years. Im still here and promise you i wll continue to live life to the fullest the best I can. Please this iz my finak bucket list for my children abd grandchildren to learn not to give up

Love you all

William