I have fallen in love. With someone extremely important to me. They are beyond kind and caring and they have the most beautiful soul. But they are in a lot of pain and in a different country and I would like more than anything in the world to be there for them to be able to keep them safe.
Gowing up like me she was very different, both of us have Asperger's syndrome and that can make you lonely and depressed more than anything in the entire world. But the difference between us is she was adopted and when she eventually met her adoptive family her real father took advantage of her and raped her, cutting her off from everything and pushing her into complete isolation for twenty years, she has never had anyone there to help her deal with it, to show her that there are good people in the world that will care about her and keep her safe, that she is worthy of love and can never be a monster. Because I know her and there has never been a kinder more caring honest soul that shines more beautifully as hers does. She just can't face nights alone anymore they have gotten too hard and she becomes very suicidal and scared and I am so scared of losing her. I just know if I can be there for her I can help her and I can keep her safe, all she wants is a hug and I can do that. I can also hold her hand as she gets councilling and help and support and I can never give up on her. I know this is a very selfish thing of me to ask help for and I do apologize, but I cannot give up. I am working hard to get there, but I need a little as well. Thank you for reading my story (hug)