Help with Christmas and birthdays

Hi everyone.

Im not going to go into details on who I am simply because I feel absolutely embarrassed to have to ask this if anyone. Anyways. I have three children. This is the first year ever that I won’t be able to do anything for Christmas for them. Thank god they are all too young to know any different but I still feel like I have to do something. They are 4, 2 and 10 months as of now. Then on top of all that the four year olds birthday is a week before Christmas and my ten month old turns one in February. I’ve been unable to find a job since the baby was born mainly because of her being breastfed. I’m willing to do anything to earn anything for Christmas and the birthdays even if I have to celebrate it later than the day of.