A desperate mother with physical and mental disabilites trying to right her wrongs and provide security for her son by being debt free and providing for her child under very stressful circumstances.
I don't want to do this but its my last resort and I want people to know and understand my story.
This is my story and current situation.
I was always a worker. I worked hard half my life. I paid my way and into the system, but then I got sick.
I lost my job which caused me to get sicker and cause long term mental health issues on top of the physical. I thought as I had paid my way the government would be there for me. I was wrong.
I have 2 sons. They were both still at school at the time. I could no longer afford new school uniform or term replacement shoes as boys being boys shoes do not last. Then the school trips. The swimming lessons. Food in tummies and Christmas and Birthdays. I used my credit card to pay for things needed. I truely believed I would get better, get back to work and pay it off.
I didn't get better. I ended up in hospital for over a week. I ended up losing bladder function. Lost feeling in my one leg and have constant painful back spasms.
Nothing since has gone well. Its spiraled out of control and I see no way out. I can't get credit. I sacrifice meals for my self. My friend she has bought me sanitry products because I can't afford them. I don't have cable or anything like that. I do not drink or smoke or take drugs. I am just a normal person whose life got destroyed by illness and mental health.
My ex wants to take my son and be his main carer. That is the final nail in my coffin. I don't have the means, the funds to fight that in court. I'm pushed in a corner. Trapped because of a bad set of events. The hospital I was in near killed me. They overdosed me on morphine. I stopped breathing and yet 4 years later my solicitors are no further forward on my case. The hospital dig their heels in. I can't rely on it to get my head above the water like I had hoped, needed and prayed.
I am not the happy, fun, go lucky Mommy I used to be and I've hit rock bottom. I have tried so hard. Tried to get back to work but no one will take me with my health. The benefits system has done me more harm than good.
I just want a chance, a fresh start. I need to be there for my children but I can't. My debts are shackles and cause more strain to my fragile state.
I am not begging but I do need help.
I don't have the friends or family to do that and if I can get my head held high once again I will promise all that help to pay it all forward to the next person.
I want to show my children what Mommy can be not what could be.
Thank you for reading.
There is so much more to this story but it would be too long.
If you have questions about it I will answer them.