Hello my name is Tony Vaughan and I’m writing this message in so much despair that I can hardly stroke the keys on the one thing I have left to my name, my computer which has become very important to me in this technological age because so many things these days require a computer. I never thought I’d see the day that rock bottom would be a word that could define my existence on earth. I’ve always humbled myself and made myself available to those that need my help even when I felt as though I really wasn’t able to help I would count my blessings and in a lot of cases offer my last because I realized my last could be the one thing that could save someone who may need it a lot more than I do. I believe there is a God that watches over us and commands us at times and puts us in positions in life to ensure the existence of others which is why I’ve always listened to the voice that would subliminally haunt my conscience and change my mind if I turned someone down who asked me for help. I would often be hesitant to reach out to someone I thought had a drug or alcohol problem because I really didn’t want to contribute to those behaviors but on my way to the bottom I began to understand that for some that is a way to numb the pain just enough to make it to see another day because life can seem so cruel at times, I thank God that I haven’t found drugs and alcohol to be a tool that suppresses my downfall in fact I thank God that he has shown me that alcohol makes it worse because the effects wear off, however I understand why so many people become a victim. I’m 51 years old and I plain and simple I have taken a fall but I didn’t go down without a fight and this is a very desperate plea for help because I feel that God has a way of delivering messages to those intended to receive them. I am married to my wife of 30 years and we have been there for each other through thick and thin and when I say thick and thin I really mean thick and thin! My wife Lanatta is truly the love of my life and the one person I can trust my life with just as much as she can trust hers with me. We are very private people and spend most of our lives with each other and as a result we don’t have many friends because our lives have just evolved around each other. We were renting a house that was very old and struggling to keep the place even though we knew it wasn’t worth what we paid our landlord but it was home, then a harsh winter came and the pipes burst underneath the house we were a rent behind on our payments so we felt we didn’t have the right to pressure our landlord to fix the pipes which left us dealing with no water for a month before we decided to just deal with an eviction because our quality of living was so compromised. We took what little money we had and rented a hotel at a weekly rate which soon became unaffordable to us because we also were paying a separate rent on a storage unit that contained everything we owned, it wasn’t long before we had to make a decision on losing our storage or becoming homeless which was an ordeal we had never experienced in the 30 years we have been together. We thank God that he granted us the ability to raise two kids a male 27 and a female 31 and be able to say they never missed a meal and always had a shelter and could bath regardless to any other obstacle that approached us. We are driving a car that is completely illegal on the road…and dangerous because we simply are doing that bad. We spent 4 months sleeping in our car which was hell because me being a man had to look over at the love of my life and feel her pain and look into her beautiful eyes as the tears just rolled down her cheeks. I felt so helpless especially as I would go to work feeling embarrassed because I was homeless but I still had my job and I am still breathing so in my heart there was still hope for a better day. Our car began to get worse because the brakes became worn. Now not only are we riding around illegal we are also riding around dangerously …we began to look forward to the weekend because we could afford to rent a room for 3 days Friday through Sunday but it was back to being homeless on Monday and my wife had to find a place to sit and wait for me to get off work. The things a person has to do each day while being homeless was torture even with a car. We also own a little dog which is why my wife couldn’t work because we have had this dog for seven years since birth so she was like a kid to us, finally we were in a position where we could afford to pay for a hotel room for the whole week but it would come with a steep price our storage unit which was $230 a month was neglected as a result the bill had gotten so far behind that sleeping in the car was no longer an option because the storage bill exceeded my paycheck …ok just when you thought it couldn’t get worse …………it did and now I’m typing and crying at the same time . We struggled desperately to save everything we owned to no avail, praying for a miracle and because we have seen miracles many times before we knew there was a chance for a miracle because at this point our lives have been nothing short of a miracle ..my wife got a job at the hotel where we were staying which was a miracle because now she would be on the premises as an employee and the person responsible for cleaning our room therefore the dog could be hidden a little more discreetly …..then I got a call stating my father was rushed to a hospital with a blood clot as a result of prostate cancer which just added to my pain but I threw it on my back like a soldier or at least I thought I was a soldier ….I ended up missing two days tending to my father’s plight and as you can imagine with my situation there were many days I would be late and absent on my job and the only way I lasted as long as I did is because I went above and beyond with my work duties and was highly favored by almost everyone …well the person I’m referring to with almost fired me a week ago and now we have our worst fears to confront . I have no problem finding a job but time is of essence as is our sanity, ……. four days ago we lost our storage and everything we owned and I mean everything we own! We are not materialistic people but we are only human and this wasn’t our first time losing our storage but we fought and sacrificed so hard to save our things it hurt us so bad. I think the worst thing is for two people who love each other so much and try so hard to have to look into each of our eyes and witness the pain we endure. Friday the 16th of November is the last day we can stay in our hotel we will be back in our car and we have nothing but pain in our hearts as we try to be strong desperately trying to figure a solution. My pride has been compromised so much but this is my desperate plea for help of any kind and I’m not asking for help to plan a vacation, we have been married 30 years and never have taken a vacation nor did we have a honeymoon so we are used to life without luxury. We just need help! I beg of some one’s mercy just for a little help to get my head above water so I can think straight and find a solution to our turmoil we need immediate help! I am trying to stay positive as I can. If God sees fit to open my eyes again I will try my best to deal with the hand that is dealt. I’ve been researching sites that help people and I’ve seen statements from philanthropist saying “convince me make it interesting” and “I will be checking to see how many sites you post your story” I am honestly in need of help and I just want to be sincere and honest. I plan to post this at several sites because I believe if the right person sees this they will feel the sincerity and may reach out. MY email is [email protected] an email I created when I was 20 years old and still rely on. My phone number is (757)394-6432 I’m from Virginia. And I would really appreciate any help I can get, I understand that there’s a very slim chance that this story will be read but there was also an even slimmer chance for my existence being the egg that survived …I believe in miracles but most of all I believe and depend on God. When my storage unit was auctioned the lady that worked there called my wife and told us the people who purchased our things left some personal things and that we could come and get them …my wife was very eager to go and see what she could salvage. I had to sit down and talk to her and convince her that God as hard as we fought to keep our things had a bigger plan. He would not have taken our things and tortured us by sending us back to our unit to see our things ravished and the greed that occurred as certain things we taken because of value and certain things that were left because they were of no value to the person who purchased it. God spoke to me and she listened… we didn’t come this far and we have not done anything to hurt anyone to deserve our fall. We have survived a lot in our 30 years together this too shall pass. My wife and I are great people we are just having a hard time.
Sincerely Tony Vaughan