Hardship

I have been trying to get a job for a long time even though i am not meant to work due to ill health, i am losing my sight and have back problems.  No one will give me a chance, i have even offered to work on a trial basis for free but still no employment.

I looked after my mum who had cancer until she died, i took it hard and fell into a depression.

I have so many debts, as do lots of other people, and it worries me sick. I can't seem to see a way out of it. I would love to go to sleep and wake up without having to worry. I live in private rented accommodation and am behind with the rent. The heating is broke, bedroom is covered in dampness and the landlord wont do any repairs until rent is up to date. I have never been able to afford my own place. 

I always had a bucket list of places i would love to see, especially The Eiffel Tower, which i never managed.

My dog is the most important thing in my life and is always there for me. Without her i wouldnt be here. She helps me daily and is so special and i dread the day that i can't see her. I always make sure that she is fed and sometimes go without so she can eat.  I would love to be able to go on a short break with her near the sea side, so she could have lots of fun and we could have special time.

I would love to be able to feel like a normal person and be happy