I am fundraising in hopes to attain enough money to finish the book I started in 2016, Giving Birth to Self-Compassion and to develop teaching modules to help free people from bondage of the beliefs they have about themselves that they have attached to Traumatic Events in their lives.
After ending a five year executive role in an organization in early 2016, I have been writing this book. I hired two mentors at the beginning in order to help me get through the early steps of writing, since I don't have any formal training on book writing. It was the best investment I made in my work and in myself. I have used my own resources but have come to needing financial support to finish this project.
The book, Giving Birth to Self-Compassion was put on my heart in the Spring of 2009. You see, In 2009 I went to a Rachels Vineyard Retreat. A retreat, using scripture serves to help men and women recover emotionally from abortion and or miscarriage. I am grateful for that experience and the healing I received from God. I came away from the experience free from any thinking that God did not forgive me, but I still didn't forgive myself.
The belief that I attached to the abortion about myself, shaped my life. I believed I was a horrible person, who didn't deserve to be loved. That belief shaped my life for 21yrs, but I did not know it, I was too busy living it.
From the outside I looked quite normal, I was fashionable, outspoken, performance oriented and at times I did very well for myself in my career path. However, the brokenness I felt from the traumatic experience kept showing up in my life in various ways. I would lose my temper, I was judgemental, I cried a lot behind closed doors, I isolated, I had a breakdown, I didn't marry and I didn't have kids.
Abortion is a sensitive subject, I realize that. I don't speak for all women or men, this is only my story. I do not judge pro life or pro choice. My trauma was abortion. There are millions of people suffering from different types of Trauma. I believe PTSD was a huge part of my demise and I didn't know it at the time. I did not want anyone to know what I was feeling on the inside because there was shame attached to it...
How we view ourselves around traumatic events is very important to our survival. With the tools that I have learned, I was quickly able to eliminate the beliefs I had about myself and I was able to learn self compassion. I no longer suffer from depression or trauma and I have learned to love myself in a very short time. With these tools I feel equipped to help others heal. My particular trauma is my purpose to help others. To teach young Women how to eliminate the beliefs about themselves around any traumatic event and teach them self- compassion is my purpose.
Could you imagine a World where people could actually use their own trauma experiences to help others and feel free from their own attachment to trauma. Wow, what a compassionate world that would be.
I have an opportunity to go to Mexico in the Spring and I hope that my modules and book will be complete by then so that I can take that information to the broken, in hopes that my authentic story will help them release trauma from their lives and release belief systems that are not serving them and that are keeping them in bondage.