Getting Back At Life

Getting My Life Back

A few years back my mom passed away due to stage 4 cancer and a year after that my dad passed away while performing his holy pilgrimage in Mecca. Life totally changed for the worse after that.

I tried to be strong for a period of time but i succumb to defeat as the stress took its toll on my mental health and body. I didn't want to be seen weak as i'm the eldest in my family, so i put up a strong front whenever i'm around other people , but deep inside i'm just a wall that is crumbling. I miss my parents, i really have no one to turn to if i encounter any problems now in life.

I can't sleep nor do my work. I destroyed my health with poor diets. Now my life is a trainwreck. Other family members/relatives aren't willing to offer any help as they think that i am old enough to handle this on my own, and as a guy and the eldest of the family, they expect me to just tough it out and handle it like a man.

Being in depression is very real, it drives you to do things beyond imaginations which in the end will ultimately destroy a person. Look at what it did to Robin Wiliams.

I'm writing this so that i can seek help from kind souls out there and get the necessary physical/psychological medical treatment that is affecting me. This is a first for me, putting myself out in the open to ask for help.

I just want to be free from being depress so that i can be strong for my family and will be able to help other people who are going through tough times just like me. Thank you.