Dancer with broken wings

Hello, My name is Charun Stone / Muerte Belle.

"I am a fusion dancer and an artist and a lover of life in its many forms. I am a hard working human being that tries hard to help as many people as I can along my paths in life and I try to believe in the most positive and productive ways of thinking and take pride in self sufficiency and self discipline"

 

I am now taking a bow and admitting that I am in need of help, and need to learn that there is no shame in asking for it when there is no other option left. Anyone that knows me knows, this is one of the hardest thing in the world for me to do, and very rarely ask for help when it comes to my own needs.

I have persevered with a damaged left knee for many years, and have spent a lot of time on the cane when the winter months hit, careful steps, while using my right leg to take pressure off of it. I was always able to make due, and found ways to live with it well enough that I was able to still work, dance and function almost as normally as anybody else could. I built a lot of core and upper body stength to accomadate the weakness in my knee.

This year I damaged my right knee, my bad left knee now is the supporting knee. This has left me almost incapacitated.

The knee injury is over 2 months old now, and it has not gotten better it is progressively getting worse. I have learned that I not only have a third degree medial Ligament Sprain, I also very probably have medial meniscus damage (this is waiting to be confirmed by an MRI scan). The healing time estimated for this type of injury if handled correctly is 6 months to a year, and this will also mean I will become prone to re-injury. This means that in order to function normally whatsoever, or be able to continue dance I need to have a custom brace built specially for my knee to ensure that:

 

1) I do not damage it further, further damage could create a need for surgery.

2) I can work again and be able to start rebuilding financially and be able to function normally in day to day life.

3) Be able to perform and dance without concern or worry of further damage.

With no job or ability to work, no avaliable assitance, and no credit. I cannot afford this essential item, but I cannot afford not to have it either, the long term costs are too heartbreaking for me to think about.

 

Right now stairs are almost impossible, lifting is an absolute no no, transit is a very painful experience and life in general is at a very low quality standard. I cannot sleep because if my knee is not in the right position, I wake up in tears from the pain. If I am too active one day, the next day I will hardly be able to leave bed. It is pure agony. I wake up every morning thinking about the bills that are piling up more and more because I cannot work, let alone hardly walk. I think about everything that needs to get done that I cannot do because I cannot risk damaging my knee more. I think about how I need work to buy a brace, but need a brace to work. I also watch a dream come true slowly slipping through my fingers.

 

The knee injury not only has destroyed my life financially and has taken all comforts away from me, it is also threatening me and my teams ability to go to China on an international artists tour in February. Select few were chosen for this amazing opportunity and I've worked very hard to earn this opportunity not just for myself but for everyone in my life that I could. It has been countless nights and days, hours of sweat and tears making it happen and now I face the possibility of losing it all. This tour is all I have left right now to look forward too and it's a terrible fate to have to face the possibility of losing it all. I will do everything I can to make this happen, and I will not give up, but that may not be enough this time around if I'm not able to take care of myself. I will do all I can either way, until I cannot do anything more.

I have always wanted to go to China, and I have always wanted to show the world what I am capable of within my passion for dance and music. I have been a dancer since 16 and have taken my art form very seriously, it is bringing me great sorrow not being able to perform properly, or teach or move at all anymore. Dance is my passion my love in life and the one thing in this world that gives me the feelings of freedom and comfort, I feel whole, I can express myself, and I feel in connection with an inner peace that cannot be reached in any other way. Without a brace I cannot dance anymore, it hurts me so deeply, it was my form of meditation. It's depressing my deeply knowing, that if I don't find a way to attain the customized brace not only will I not be able to dance or be able to tour China, I will also be letting down all my team members and they may not be able to go either, and that absolutely crushes me , the thought of seeing everyone's faces so disappointed destroys me and I can't bear the thought of it. These people have become in many ways my family and have tried to help me in every way they can, I just cannot bear the weight of knowing I let them down or having to watch me spiral as my life continues to fall apart further and further in a grid lock knowing what is needed to achieve productivity and balance in life again.

 

My fate, and my teams fate is in the hands of others now.

I am humbly asking for your help. I will find a way to give back to each and every one of you.

 For those of you that cant but are sending good vibes, I will find a way to give back to you too.

You can see the team that is going on the China tour at the facebook page:  deathbell entertainment facebook

This is my artists page where you can find my biography and more information about me: Muerte Belle Artist Page (Muerte Belle is my stage name).

 

I will offer what rewards I can in trade for help, it is the least I can do. I am at your mercy.

I ask for your help because there is nothing else I can do.

 I know people usually put these up for other people, but I do not know what else to do. If you want to know more about my situation etc please feel free to contact me, you can email me at [email protected].

 

Thank you for hearing my plea...

Sincerely and humbly,

Charun Stone/Muerte Belle