have gone weaker. I can't move it very well and i can't sleep because of shortening breathing. i want to tell my mom about this soon. i noticed my voice is starting to lose. I don't know why just a stretching technique could make it worse or is there any cause behind it?

(March 13 2018)

Somehow i can sleep at least 7 hours startung at 3am. I was fine sleeping until I started to hard breathing. I thought i can't breathe anymore but I guess anxiety hits me again because I feel scared to mom since she can't afford my donation. She convinced me somehow that this illness will heal someday. I believe it will heal because i got this last week even it feels like a struggle.

Just earlier afternoon my left vocal cord seems moving. I thought it was moving at first then i'm having hard to my breathing but I wonder why my voice stills good. Not very hoarse but can't go on pitch or speak louder yet. Then I tried to release my voice and I can feel my right vocal cord is open and vibrating which makes me think my left vocal cord is the one who got paralyzed but I was wrong, my right vocal is the one who got paralyzed. Because I can move my left vocal cord but my right vocal cord is hard to move. Also when i tried to swallow the food there than the left vocal cord I can feel like i'm having hard to eat and a small portion of food goes down there. I might have pneumonia from what i researched from at least 3 website you might have it if liquid and food keeps coming down to the lungs but I hope not having it....but now I know how to eat from my left vocal cord and I can feel my food and liquid goes down to my stomach. Not on my left lungs because maybe I can move it and it's closed which I think also paralyzed in close position but I hope it isn't. Somehow I can breathe well but I don't know what will happen when I sleep again. I feel sleepy but i wonder if that makes me able to sleep now it's almost 10pm here.... I hope i can sleep well today.