The truth is, Cancer Stinks!  As I look back on these past few months I am sometimes still in shock.  Some days, everything is too much to take in.  This has been quite an adjustment period. In a few short months I went from feeling healthy to having breast cancer.  I have had to conquer the fear of surgery, the fear of pain , the fear of what I would look like, not to mention, ‘Am I going to survive this’  I had to come face-to-face with the losses cancer would bring me and stop beating myself up.  This became very clear this week.  I visited a holistic wellness center in NJ.  Dr Roger Sahoury was remarkable.  NO- I didn’t get “cracked” as many have asked me.  We worked on emotional healing.  It was amazing.

There have been so many ups and downs with this disease but I am learning as we go.   I cry every day, YES, EVERY Day!  I feel truly bless and I have an amazing support system of family and friends. They are my reasons that I choose to get out of bed every day, but so many times during the quiet times, I just lie in bed and cry.  I kept thinking “What have I done to myself?”

BUT Then I focus on the positive.

Dan & I were the asked to be the guest speakers for our online business.  Although I was exhausted and it took me down for a few days, it’s my passion to help others and always brings me back up.   I feel fortunate to have started a business from home that will some day prosper.  I have so many incredible leaders reaching out to assist me and I'm eagar to learn.  The future looks bright and I smile through the tears thinking of all of this.

Lastly  Have you heard of a LOVE BOX? I had not either, but my cousins daughter sent me one. Her letter read;

“Dear Cindy,

You have just received a love box!

In this box you will find….

• Words & sounds to inspire your soul
• Bling for when you need a little pick me up
• Supplies to melt away the aches and pains of a bad day
• Cozy socks for when life gets a little too cold
• Lipstick to frame that beautiful smile that continues to shine so bright!

May this box make everything a little easier.

I love you !  You got this

Xoxo Meghan”

So for today,  I will use my mineral bath therapy soak in my tub  while listening to my new cd “You make me Brave”  Afterwards,  I will put on my cozy socks, apply my lipstick and put on my Bling.  Its also the perfect fall day to settle down with  my wonderful book, “God is Good” .  I’m sure I will cry at some point, but its ok and I’m one step closer to being 100% healed.

Cindy

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