Im starting this campaign to help me get my life back. Since the age of 5, that i've been fighting an invisible enemy called, immune thrombocytopenia (ITP), If you're wondering what the long name means, here's how it breaks down: "Thrombocytes" are your platelets and "penia" means you don't have enough of something. Put those terms together, and you get "thrombocytopenia". Its not a severe disease like cancer or others, but was bad enough to make me jump from hospital to hospital since i can remember, i was inside a bubble, i lost a very big part of my childhood in hospitals, being afraid, submitted to fear of not knowing what was happening and why so many seringes, white uniforms, sad faces and questions. So, i lost classes, got behind, couldn't do sports, i sadly remember being in day nursery, and on sunny days, teachers would take us to swimming pools and i couldn't help but stay under the parasol with my teachers and just, stare at my friends playing, because everyone would think that i coudn't be exposed to the sun too much or i'd start bleeding, in fact, sometimes it would happen, and once it was soo intense that doctors said i nearly died, something i can never forget. If i coudn't be a good student for lack of attention, this disorder would only make it worst, but still, i tried to live a normal life, althought i could not get what i lost, my education progress, i sense that i lost too many of it, now, at the age of 26, i've lack educational degrees because i couldn't follow the standart, i've been working since my 18, but couldn't ever find a steady job, i've work from coffee shops, to night bars, a supermarket, and even, and my worst experience ever, not disrespecting the job or people who live from it, a slaughter house, its indeed a job for a steel stomach. I dropped out of school at the age of 18 due to a phase, i was revolted with everything, i've lost my father at the age of 16 on a day before my prom, that typical happy memory that everyone has, mine, got lost, i didn't have one.
Its was soo many things happening that i had a total breakdown, but i got up, started working, trying to live a normal life, but i couldn't find a meaning in it, untill i formed a band with friends, those days were something, i was happy, but, with a band, came many things too, alchool, drugs, fights, a lot, that happyness was merely a lie, i went self-destructive and i've lost so many once again. So, today, i'm living with my mother, in France, wich i don't like, im not good with french language, the country is great, it's soo beautiful and full of amazing things, but, i don't feel like i want to be here, i want to be in my country, learning, getting back what i truly desire, the knowledge, i don't dream big, to me, having my own typical rock bar is enough to live a dream life, but first, i need an educational degree, i want to learn management so i can have my own place, my own job, so i can stop being afraid of what might happen if i can't make it anywhere. This is why i started this campaign, i want to raise money so i can rent a room in my country, get my professional degree, find a job in the meanwhile, and for last, have my own job, i don't know if i should, but someday, i'll write a book about it, just to remember not to forget what i've been through and that things can change, life can change.