Over the last few years I've really struggled with my depression due to an emotional break -up & having to flee from my hometown with my 2 girls to start a new life.
Again recently with the lockdown hitting, losing my job & getting into a whole lot of debt, trying to keep a roof over our heads n bills mounting up, its had a huge impact on my self worth n confidence, which makes me feel like a failure.
I've never been able to financially provide what I'd like to for my children. I've always had the stress n worries about being fired, making ends meet, keeping food in the fridge, having enough money to pay the bills .
Its always been difficult for me to ask for support or help as I am so used to struggling & doing everything by myself.
Simply asking for help might seem obvious but it leaves me feeling shame about being unable to cope.
I've run out of options now though n I desperately want to take control of my life again.
I started playing around with string art as a hobby to help relax me , vent my frustration n calm my anxiety down. Now I'd like to make it into a business, along with personalised gifts for people( engraving, vinyl, etc ) . As I find it soothing & think there's a market for it.
Each one will be handmade by myself.
Unfortunately the start up costs, investing in the equipment etc is quite costly and nobody seems to want to give a single parent on benefits a helping hand or business loan.
Im hoping this is where you could help me get back on my feet n do something I love.
This could really help me both financially & emotionally. A great opportunity to get my children involved n leave them something when I'm gone so they don't have to walk the same dark path as me.
Im hoping this will become a huge success , then eventually i can help someone else whose gone down this lonely road, show them life does go on n is worth living. Never give up x
Thank you everyone who takes their time to read my story, n good luck in your ventures .