Forced Early Retirement

 “Your temporary position has ended and we have to let you go!”

After 4 years, I received the news with mixed emotions. I was happy because the long hours that the job required and the fact that I needed to work those hours and more in order to make the monthly bills had come to an end. Truly, I was exhausted, there were times that I was so tired, I thought I was going to lose my mind. I am not a stranger to hard work and long hours, but all I could think of at the time “It’s over, Thank God, I can finally rest.”

You see at 63 years old, with failing health, the subway commute with all of the up stairways along with my breathing problems it was a job getting to the job. The long hours and job frustrations were taking their toll on my health.

The first month off, I was so happy. I rested, and started to feel like myself again. I began thoroughly cleaning my house. I rarely would venture outside.

The second month I inquired about benefits, and there was no way I would be able to make the $1,200 a month rent and utility bills along with my other bills which total $1,118.00 each month. This amount does not include food. Reality set in! Because of my kind landlord, who understands my situation, but at the same time wants his rent, is allowing me a little time to try and get the money. Unfortunately, there is no pension or 401K to use as a subsidy. Yes, I have credit card debt and a few loans that were taken to help make ends meet when car repairs were needed and other emergencies.

I have no health insurance and have to deal with my conditions without medication. Thank god they are not debilitating and I hope I will able to survive until I can afford coverage.

I am looking for work, because I know that in order to make just my monthly bills, I must have a job. The stress of not having enough money will cause other illnesses and I can’t afford that. It’s hard though, because of my age. In this economy, employers can hire college grads at the same money, but I do know some people in management positions, and have asked them to keep me in mind should a position opens up, so I am hoping something will come through soon.

I am in debt for $20,657.00. I had hoped to pay the debt off in the next few years when I would be ready on my own to retire. The amount does include the month’s rent that I still owe.

I am writing because I need some assistance. I am a proud woman and an avid believer and I now I can’t do it alone so I am praying for help until I can help myself.

“Let go and Let God”