Hello, i am writing to all of You in pain and Shame, that i have to come to stage, that i need to ask for help. I am young single mum, who cant be happy or smile as per defect in my facial features. It was done to me not by nature, but Doctors. While being Single mum, working, studying, paying my bills, paying medical bills (MS and diabetes) I In these times i am unable to save any more, and i have no family to turn to, as well i am foreign without any support. In 2005 My Dentist removed my 4 teeth, 2 top and 2 bottom, as i was attacked for 23€ that i had on me. I was kicked in face numerous times, which resulted in need to remove the damaged teeth (one of them was broke out Completely After the removal, i was advised, that it is possible to get implants with screw, and it would look as good as my own teeth. I was excited. My Jaw healed well. I did not know about insurances, or medical cards, as i was pretty much foreign teenager in Big city. After My dentist checked up on me, he said it looks great, and that i can get it done. I was over the moon. Only thing i was not over the moon about is, that it would cost me 4.200€ , but my smile was everything to me. Smile and hair. I was referred to a Dentist/dental surgeon or someone like that in city centre in posh area. I really wanted my teeth back and confidence... The doctor was pretty rough. took impressions, then said.... i think you need more bone.. It wasnt what i wanted to hear, but i promised myself, that i will work harder, since bone graft heals 6 month. He introduced me to synthetic bone and cows bone, and i had to sign agreement, that i am aware about mad cows disease. The doctor was really rough, treated me like livestock, but i was just praying for my teeth. When the surgery was done, all my jaw was black/purple for 2 weeks and kept swelling even after 2 years. the Bone graft first stayed where it is supposed to be, then i noticed uncomfortable feeling in my upper jaw, my cheek/inner lip kept swelling. Turned out my implant have been placed incorrectly, it kept slipping back, there is a corner of a bone sticking out of my jaw (whatever is left from it), sticking in my cheek from inside. Plus i have a hole in my jaw in size of my pinky, and the hole is almost reaching into my nostril. I wake up every morning with one side of my face swollen because of this. I had savings, which i spent on my bone graft, that was placed in a very unprofessional manner. Now i cant save as much, as i pay for Diabetes medications, since i do not have Medical card. I do not have scheme for diabetes, so i pay for my strips and Metformin and Farxiga (its 150$ each month), i need to pay for all my blood tests 90€ once in 2 month, i do get my MS medication on scheme tho, but have to pay towards it. And paying for my Rent all alone 950€ a month, i am in same bedroom with my daughter, otherwise i am not able to provide. My daughters father was murdered in my country when she was 4 years old, so we have no support whatsoever. I spent 3.200€ on this already, But this lack of industry regulations, or carelessness, and find myself incapable of saving another 5 thousand, which is the apporox amount that i need. i found inexpensive Lithuanian Doctor, who said he would fix it for me for half fee, if i get the bone graft replaced. I cant ask any money back, as i "signed form" :-( No doctors here know what to do, they are speachless, how i have been "botched" and are afraid to do anything about it and afraid to even open the site, and they are afraid that something in nose have collapsed as a result. The natural bone has been eaten away, the implant of the bone partially sticking out of my gum. The Lithuanian Dentist found someone in Northern Ireland, who would accomodate me, but i need to have 2 surgeries. 1-I have to do xray. 2-One surgery is to remove the messed up piece of whatever it is 3-new bone implant, which will be 3-4 times bigger than the first 4-screw implants to be screwed in (4 of them) 5-temporary teeth 6-teeth to place on top of the screws. I did not had birthday or celebrations couple of days ago to save, i do not have friends, as i work too much to save, do not socialise because i save, do not go shopping or buy new clothes because i am saving, i do not do my driving test to save and dont have car to save. It is depressing to be conscious about smiling. Smiling is supposed to make us happy, not depressed. The 1500 that i have saved wont get me far. The fact of having MS and my health deteriorating means my dream is shrinking every day.. Sleepless nights thinking about it are not helping either. I am trying to reverse my diabetes and IR with exercise, keeping very low food intake etc Please help me have my jaw back. I did not get married because ot this, i cant smile for my wedding pictures, and lost my husband to be that i love, as he could not understand the depressio of being toothless, jawless bride.