I want to tell you my story. I'm a Portuguese 23 year old girl.
When I finished high school, I've decided I didn't want to go to college, but I wanted to find my purpose. I started working in temporary jobs and traveling with the Money, my set was to find the beautiful things that are hidden, and not the tradicional turist trip.
It sounds perfect and I really had experiences that I could never explain in words- and I'm so greatful for that.
But recently, I came back to my home country and I started feeling really sad. Like I didn't belong here, and I couldn't explain it to anyone without sounding crazy. I saw all my friends finishing college, starting to get a job and carrers and I started to question if I did the right choice.
I hit the rock bottom.
I lost my focus, my motivation. And I felt really sad before, but that was different. I didn't had a next step and that was freaking me out.
I couldn't find hobbies that made me feel better or a job that I felt that would fullfill me.
All I could do was cry and I was starting to give up.
I couldn't sleep propertly and that wouldn't help. I started Reading about a lot of things, trying to find answers.
I started Reading about alternative medicine, and how it could help a lot of different things. I Always believed that there's more than anti depressives, that nowadays a lot of people take to help themselfs. I believed that there is a natural, self improved cure. A cure for your inner self.
So I realized that that should be my next step. Start a journey to discover how to cure your inner self by yourself, to find the answers.
But I realized that, even if I felt so low, I couldn't be the only one. I realized that as I felt that way, lots of people feel the same way for their own reasons.
And that was the moment I stopped feeling sorry for myself- I felt that I should go and find the answers not only for me, but for everyone in need. I should find the answers everybody is looking for.
And I would make myself an experience, an exemple.
My plan is to make a daily report of the improvement, since the first day, explaining how I feel about myself, how I felt with each alternative I tried, every choice I make.
In the beggining, it will start with a blog, so I can write freely and open hearted. The final Project is to make a vídeo, a short movie or a resume (what feels adequated with how the journey goes) explaining every detail, each alternative medicine, how I felt before and after, and what is more adequated for every emotion.
The subjects I'm planning to evaluate in a more especific way are depression, anxiety, loneliness, lack of motivation, and OCD.
I believe there is hope. And I want to find the answers for myself, and share with the world, so that everybody can look and find it for themselfs.
I will take care of the accomodations, the money from the crowdfunding is for the experiences, like every alternative medicine I try, every natural remedies I take, the price of the plane ticket.
My plan is to go to Brasil. There's a lot of alternative choices and I hope to find a lot of them. I plan to go by the end of the month, and evaluate how many time I will need for the experience- I believe every medicine or alternative has it's own time- but I'm planning about 3 months minimum.
I hope that I can get help right now, and I really hope I can find what I'm looking for and help others in the future!