Help me reach my forgotten dream

My father was diagnosed with stroke 2 years ago while on a vacation in mountain province (His childhood hometown). He hadn't been able to move normally since then.

He became disabled and unable to do work. I needed to stop school to take care of him right before he got diagnosed. Stopping my studies was a tough decision to make for me and my family, but we have no choice. And the fact that paying for school and my dad's medical expenses is going to be very difficult to manage.

I remember seeeing him lying down in the ER, apologizing to me as soon as i got there. But i understand that life has ups and downs and this is one of those days. We stayed in our provincetown where we spent years to cope for his recovery.

I took care of him until he recovered. Though his recovery took a while, he tried his best to improve doing physical therapy almost every minute everyday. He successfully managed to develop physical strength to the other side of his body. We reached our goal of getting back his strength until he can already live alone without assistance. So i travelled back home to find some opportunities waiting for me. My mom told me that we cant pay for my tuition and my tuition dept that has been quitely charging me over the past first semester. My dept grew. I got depressed. I isolated myself from everybody. But didnt let it stop my journey.

I decided to get back on my feet and get on track. I was planning to look for a job and pay for my responsibilities. I want to take back my credentials,save tuition money and support my father's health.

The only thing that is holding me back is this lockdown. And since my family is on hold from working and getting paid. We are in bad shape. I aslo had dental problems that got worse and needed fixing. And i am suffering from financial difficulties. Ive been dealing with this problem personally for quite a long time. It has been difficult for me to communicate with people. I cant talk to them like how i should normally do. I cant smile and i always have to look away. I avoid looking at them directly everytime. It is holding me back from being motivated & confident.

Im afraid that this would cause me to fail from getting hired for a job.

We are dealing with difficult circumstances in life in times of crisis. Whereas people like us who have to work to be paid are struggling to eat eanough on a daily basis. We cannot afford to have enough income for our needs. Especially for my disabled father who is depending on us. And us only.

If you are reading this. I hope i touched your heart with my story. Your generosity is a gift for people like us who are in need. Thank you so much and Godbless.