Sara’s Misery and Conundrum

Help Sara out with getting her life back in order. After a failed stint at university and losing access to student loans, she has been living in an unsafe environment at home. She just can't find a way out.

I am a 22year old female living in New Zealand and a former university student who had to drop out of university due to no longer being eligible to receive student loans. This was because I had a rather abysmal academic performance and did not meet the minimum requirements to continue receiving a student loans. A bout of depression over the last two years was the main factor for this.

Now living at home, I have developed a constant fear, and paranoia envelops me everyday. During the day, I desperately scour job search websites in order to find work that would be suitable for my parent's approval. Unfortunately, I have been barred from leaving the house and threatened with violence if I ever sneaked out.

There are times when my parent has an unpredictable breakdown and beats me. I don't want to go to the authorities because I would be alienated and despised by everyone in my family. Also, there is this feeling that I rightfully deserve this since I am of no help to my struggling family. Everyday I am wondering 'Why am I here?' and I can understand their point of view, what is the use of me being here when I contribute nothing to my family and have a fear of interacting with strangers.

Please assist me in any way you can. I would gratefully appreciate it if you would consider donating and helping to alleviate my personal struggles. Your donations would go towards my tuition fees for the following semester.

Essentially I am unable to work a part time/full time job to raise funds to go back to university since I can't leave the house, unless I plan on going back to university again. I am stuck!