Please help Zee and Mao get through the rough times and get back on our feet

My dear friends, I write to you a little bit ashamed or shy to ask for help. But, I came against the wall and I don't know where and to who else to turn to. Some of you know and have been following, some not, the past few years of my life. I was working on the boats for many years, in between I did a couple of trips to India and any time I could, and with what I had, I was helping the kids there. Practically all my life I have never turned my head away from anyone and shared all I had with others.I have met my love Nikola in Belgrade and after so many years of travelling, my heart has found a home and someone who thought me how to love and how to love myself, by loving and accepting me for who I am. I haven't had a home of family since my father died when I was twenty years old. Unfortunately, Nikola was sick and unable to work so I have provided for both of us, but also had to cut down work to a season a year, then less and less so I could be more at home and support him with everything and anything I've had to give. Last year and a half I couldn't work, I have had a knee surgery, then I had my other leg paralysed for several moths and spent more than six months disabled. This has very much drained me financially as I have no other source of earnings than working on the boats and savings from that work. As many of you know, Nikola has left our world and passed away October 2nd 2016. at the age of 45. Needless to say that this event has thorn me apart, all my hopes and dreams, plans for the now and the future went down the drain. For days I have begged God to take me away, too. But somehow I am still here and people tell me that I need to keep going. Only thing that I have in my life now is our little cat Mao who means a world to me. Even he got sick after all this shocks and we kept seeing the vet without many results. There are a few jobs in sight for the next year and hopefully one of them will work out for me and I will be strong enough to do my duties right. Right now I am out of means to make it through another month to three, till one of this jobs works out while at the same time I have to fight to keep our home, as it is not entirely ours, which means lawyer fees and all sorts of bills to pay and I have promised Nikola to finish and publish his book ( he was a writer).

I have never asked anything from anyone, nor for the favours that I didn't know I would be able to return, but now I came to this point in life when I need to turn to someone or all of you, to help me get through this, with at least a smallest help you can give so I can get back on my feet and start functioning again.

Thank You kindly, from the bottom of my heart, for me and Mao