Please help Yosef, a former lone soldier

My name is Yosef, a citizen of Israel and a former Ione soldier. I still live in Israel without my family. As for today, I found true love and despite all difficulties we build our relationship. 2020 has been a devastating year for both of us. I used to have financial issues in the past, but having a job made things much easier. Now I truly fell into despair. My story dates back to 2017. I owned a small business and took a loan of 30 000 nis to expand it, but on the next day a bank which granted me a loan claimed I didn't have enough guarantees and withdrew 10 000 nis from my account, still obliging me to pay back the initial sum of 30 000 nis. And I haven't even managed to do anything before they put my account under arrest. Since that incident I have to handle a continuous lawsuit against the bank. Without a normally active bank account I couldn't pay my own bills, and it turned into 3 additional lawsuits where I owe nearly everyone.

The means left at my disposal couldn't cover purchasing expenses of ad hoc technologies and my business fell into pieces. I don't deny my own responsibility for those failures, I was just very young and inexperienced.I wanted to create something new with a lot of passion,but the harsh reality just hit me straight into my face. A person who went through lawsuits, bureaucracy, bituach leumi, lawyers...knows much how it's like. I was alone and couldn't handle thebattle. But I didn't give up. I opened an account in Postal bank and went to work in a warehouse. My goal was just to make ends meet. No one helped to pay my rent and bills. I found a soulmate.Gradually things seemed to get better. And then the pandemic hit. At first I lost my job, then my health started to deteriorate due to sleepless nights, breakdowns, chronical headaches. My unemployment allowance the avtala of 2800 nis were later reduced to 2000. I had to pay rent of 1700 nis and bills. There was nothing left for food for me and my dog, so I took some cleaning jobs when it was possible. I'm not able to pay for my lawyer in order to settle a 50 000 nis debt. I'm totally desperate. And only one thought of having a loving boyfriend reminds me that life is worth living. But this relationship won't last for long. The state of Israel intends to deport him. He is a citizen of eastern Ukraine, a war stricken territory, and fled as a refugee to Israel 5 years ago. Now we want to marry, but there's no time left for arranging all the necessary documentation. Since my boyfriend's refugee status is not valid anymore, we filed for an appeal which cost 8000 NIS and the following procedure of status legalisation which costs 20 000 not including fees. My beloved one says that he will handle all expenses, but I know that during the pandemic year he worked only for 4.5 months, not having a right for allowance, because he is not a citizen.

At first he worked as a maid in hotels, then as a cleaner, but everything got shut down due to quarantine . He does not receive the allowance, since he is not a citizen, and the savings that he had have evaporated long ago.Now he works at a construction site and this work is killing him.

I really don't have the strength to fight Israel's bureaucracy anymore.I'm on the edge. Therefore I seek your empathy and understanding . Its really difficult and embarrassing for me to write all this. Hopefully someone who reades this story can put himself in my shoes and give a helping hand.