PLEASE HELP ME TO GET A COCHLEAR IMPLANT

I am Reino Boy Cayanga 25, yrs old, from Philippines Nueva Ecija. Year (June) 2020 My hearing impairment started in both ears, I have just returned to my job (Restaurant), at first I didn't pay attention because maybe it was just because I was tired, but until a few days later, I was wondering My co -workers, why don't I answer when the Customer calls me, so I did a checkup at the ENT in Cabanatuan, Prescription Drugs were given. Still nothing happened. Until I was a different doctor, I almost ran out of savings. Then in November 2020, my right ear was operated on because the infection was already severe and it might end up in the brain more dangerously, so I agreed to have the operation. But for almost a year now, nothing has happened and I still haven't heard. Until now. We went back to the doctor and he said Cochear implant is just my hope to hear and I will be referred to Manila. I searched for what that implant was and how much it was. , 😭😭I'm even more discouraged. Because it's a million😭😭 and I need a 50% downpayment for the surgery to happen😭😭 Right now, I'm here at home, ashamed of people. Just locked up inside the house😭😭😭 ..my mom expects me to help with the expenses because she's a maid and my brother is still studying😭😭 It's so hard, I can see that we're suffering even more because of my annoyance.😭 I still have so many dreams in Life, I still have so many things I want to do in my life but I'm losing hope and I want to disappear from the world 😭😭 I hope you can help me even if it's just a checkup in Manila with the implant doctor, if this is what I'm hoping to hear again🙏 Thank you❤

I really want to hear again🙏🙏😭😭