Please Help Me, Im in Debt Trap

am an Overseas Filipino Worker her in Dubai. I been working here for 7yrs. Dubai is my second home. It made easy for me to live here despite being far from my family. The country is so friendly as well as people who lived here. Even different culture and nationalities it never been an issue for me. I love this country which has given me to worked without descrimination.

But life is tough for me, as years passed. Due to some instances, issues and problems back home, i am started to be in debt which comes to worst until today. With my salary I tried to provide the needs of my family. As much as I can I gave all what they want. I am currently working as an Office Clerk. With my salary of $1,500 I am carrying a burden in debt of almost $46,500. A big part of how I treated my family just to give them a better life had put me in this situation. At some point I know I have mistake. But their happiness had blinded me to what will happen in the future. Until this day. I dont know how to settle my debt. I dont know how I will fix my life again. People may see me a strong woman, that they even see anything wrong happening to me. I am a happy and very positive person. But even how strong you are, its sometimes you cant avoid being down. That sometimes you could think of ending your life to end up all the sorrow. But still my mind I have to fight all this trials, depressions and stress, deep in my heart I know that God will never put me in this situation if I cant win it. Its just quite difficult as I dont have no one to talk to because Im afraid what people may say and think. I am afraid to be judged. I am afraid to shamed.

Now, trying to seek help from your good office. To give me the 2nd chance to refix my life again. After all of what I'm going through at the moment, I asked God for forgiveness for all my wrong doings. To stop this trial as already i made up to realize what I have to learned from all of this burden. I know that there are lots of people who heavily had burden than mine. Who needs more helped than me. But I am just desperately wanted to end my burden. To get the chance of starting over again. I dont want to end behind bars because of my debt. I dont want it to happen as the future of my siblings and family had depend on me. Who will support them? I am the only one who works for them. Im into this already. And I admit that where I am now, what happen to me now is all my fault.

Please I am begging you to help me. Please.

Thank you and more power.