Please help me follow my path and help hurt dogs

I was always so full of empathy and love for dogs. Remember crying as aa kid when I saw a drunk man dragging his dog on a leash.

I have recently achieved a Masters in appied sociology and social anthropology. This was the first time I asked myself what I really wanted to do in life? I finished an intership in an advertising agency and worked for a while in HR. I really thought that that was a right path for me, but I wasn't happy at all. Always felt thet my heart layed elsewhere

About two years ago I was a volunteer at an animal shelter. You can't imagine how hard it was for me. It was during winter. Here in Poland shelters don't have a lot of money and all cages are placed outside. A thousand dogs go for a real walk only once a week (usually weekends, because that's when people have more free time and some of them decide to come and help). After a couple of weeks I had a breakdown - this was when I took care of a really damaged dog for the very first time. He could only walk a couple of meters and then layed down on the ground whimpering, crying and peeing from fear. This completely killed me. I remembered how my knees hurt the next day from kneeling on the ground and trying to comfort him.

I just couldn't do it any more, I cried for days and missed many classes. I hated myself for being so weak.

Two years later here I am thinking about the rest of my life. Couple of weeks ago I decided that now I'm older and stronger. I decided to visit the pet shelter again. My heart hurt so much when I saw that many dogs that I met years ago are still here. The first dog I walked was a mongrel puppy (all dogs are mongrels here, hundreds od mongrel dogs). He was so happy when I fed him and took for a walk! He had a very wounded tail because he kept biting it from stress, he was terrified of other dogs but kept licking my face and hands. I didn't know how to help him fight his fear. Tried not to look in his eyes, but I did. That's when I knew. That's who I always was and this was my life purpose.

Being a dog behaviorist was who I decided to be no matter what. Unfortunatelly to became one you have to finish postgraduate studies that cost money. I didn't heve to pay for my masters (they are free here when you have good grades), but this kind of courses are very expensive. The total expense of becoming an animal psychologist - dog behaviorist is too much for me. I don't have that much money - all me and my fiancee earn is enough to pay for the apartment, bils and everyday expenses. We can't even have a dog because it costs a lot and our place is just too small. But I have a guinea pig that I love so much - she makes me smile everytime life gets too hard.

If you can help me I'll be so happy to feel your support in fulfilling my dream.

Thank you so very much in advance for your help!

(every extra dollar you donate I will spend on blankets for the shelter as it is now very cold here in Poland)

This is the shelter I spend most of my time in http://www.napaluchu.waw.pl/o_schronisku/galeria_z...