Please Help A Disowned Filipino LGBT+

Hi. I'm currently still at college, and studying engineering (in a state university here in the Philippines). Unfortunately, my parents (extremely catholic and conservative) - who are literally the only people I depend my financial needs on - recently found out I'm gay. This messy situation I'm in right now is partly my fault though. My parents and I had several fights before about such matter since there were times I've accidentally hinted I'm gay, and they've already warned me that if I actually turn out to be "a disgusting lesbo" and continue to "live life this way", they'd never have second thoughts of kicking me out. They're the type of people who really stand by their words so I took that warning seriously, and started in establishing a small shop I can temporarily get an income from. However, they found out about my way earlier than I thought, so I am now caught off-guard. I'm still working on my shop for it to reach and accommodate a wider range of customers, but for now, this funding campaign is all I have. I really didn't want to annoy people and beg for some funds, and I actually had no idea about the gogetfunding site before, but the universe sort of lead me here when I felt like quitting everything, and was having suicidal thoughts as I literally Google'd "fastest way to end it". This site was advertised on the page of one of the suggested results. I'm just giving it a try.

I'm really sorry for bothering you, but I wouldn't really do this if I had other options. I can't come to my friends for help 'cause that means I would need to come out to them as well, but I am not ready for that yet - especially now after witnessing those horrifying reactions of my own parents.

Anyway, thank you for your time reading this whether or not you'd donate. If you understand what I'm going through, it's already enough for me. Thank you.