Paid my house & start again

This is like a letter, then, to whom it May concern:

Hi, the time is passing by, and still struggle to get back, the little business that I use to had, gave me enough to paid my bills, my house and live ok. suddenly personal problems came by, and at the same time the city economy went from bad to worst, no jobs, violence everywhere, you can see in the news paper, Juarez have violence, but I live there, there is no place to go if you do not have money.

Maybe I am in bankruptcy, I not sure, but I try not to see it that way, I have all sort of debts, and still I am alive, that's great. I manage to found a client that I work 3 times a year for him giving service of maintenance to cameras, with this I can at least bring food to my table. Well this year this may, change because my client lost the bid with his client, this means no work 3 times a year.

Then a paper appear in my house saying that I have to paid my house or loose it, the paper said you got 24hrs to appeal, I being asking to lawyers what to do, but still I owe the house, and I have to paid it.

Yes, I try several ways to start again in my business, (because I have time working for my own), but arrrrg, what the f...., is not working. I try not to despair, to forbear be patient. I try assemble a selling business in Amazon US, it did not work, Amazon froze the selling account, that because I do not understand yet. I create a computer course to teach people to repair computers, but I only manage to get few people and because of their economy problems they start to not came. Well I change to teach English, and the same, I change again to create simple programs (I not an expert in computer programming, I do what I can), and no one buy's them. Someone told me go back to the maquiladora (inbound industry), and work as what your are (engineer), it did not work. The reason that they told me is that I spend to much working for my own, and there is no verifiable experience, What!!! So I still working for my own in the one thing I know most: client service and computer repair...

The money I am asking for is to paid my house, finish the construction at the back of yard to put there a business, and part of the money is to start again, (put a computer rental and printing service), like a cybercafe, (a little one, with 10 computer or less).

If this campaign works that will be great, if not, well, I will try again and again, or change something still else, I know there is something good for me for life, and maybe this is the way that the universe is telling, wrong that is not, try it again, until something work for good. Thanks for your support, and I hope you or someone of you can help me... To paid my house, (I do not want to loose it, I have no place to go), and start again.

For the other debts, they are not as severe as the debt of the house, so maybe with the computer rent business, my current client, and some new ideas I can paid them, and go for the goal of financial freedom.

Thanks again...