Overcoming childhood problems

When I was 8 my parents divorced, moved a lot from mom to dad every time with the same hassle and problems. Tried to make something off my school and always worked hard to achieve things. But sometimes luck isn't on my side.

When I became 12, in July. my mother died off cancer, she had a long hard struggle and I saw her fading away. Never easy to see your mom slipping away.

a month after that my father died, also cancer (tumor). In contrast to my mom my father only lived 3 months after he got diagnosed.

Now a became an orphan, and my grandparents took me into their family. they raised me as good as they could, but nothing is perfect.

soon as I got 18 I had to move (wasn't welcome anymore), so I moved back to my stepmother, but instead off helping she asked me for money... naive as I was, I gave it to her. She never payed me back.

I did my first loan to buy furniture and started to live alone, learning with bumps and bruises...

Soon I couldn't repay my loan and the bank took a share off my salary and set me on the black list for loans.

Now a few years later I am almost trough paying off my loan, but another hill is on my road, I need to pay for another loan which is a debt off my dad, the bank is asking it from me, as I am his son.

I can't get any more loans because I am on the black list and I am already giving a share off my salary.

I have no idea how to get over this, normally I wouldn't ask anyone for help, definitely not on a crowdfunding site, but I don't know what else to do.

If I don't pay this loan, I will loose my job, my home and everything I own,

I though I went trough enough pain loosing both my parents, but I'm on the edge of loosing myself.

I really hope this is going to give the solution.

thank you in advance