My twins education/Fund for my parents tour

Got married in an early age and was given two beautiful daughters that are actually twins. Apprently, I was unlucky with my maried life. Right after graduating IT in college (APRIL 2008) I got pregnant while my ex husband is stil finishing his studies. Due to the pregnancy and the wedding, I worked as a call center agent right away to support our needs.Wayback 2008, landing on an IT firm would only pay a bachelors graduate 12000 a month. An amount that I know is insufficient to raise a family of 4 plus expenses on the wedding.

The wedding (AUG 2008) was just a simple yet formal church wedding. Sadly most of the expenses were paid by my parents since my partner and his family is not that capable to provide. Why? For they don't even have a decent home (which we call slums here in the Philipines) . But despite their situation, I loved him (with 'D') whole heartedly and didn't even care about their financial standing. i was really ashamed of my parents for I know that the wedding should no longer be their responsibility and still they managed to give us a decent church wedding. My mother doesnt like my ex husband when we were still college but right after the wedding, I really adore my mom for she managed to treat him as her own child and not just a son in law that quickly.

Months passed and I was about to give birth to my twins (Oct 2008). And since history repeats itself. It was again my mom who looked for money in any way she can just to pay for our hospital bills which includes: Hospital charge for CS: roughly 30,000, PF for OB and Anestheciologist: around 50,000, 2 weeks hospitalization of my premature twins: around 40k (2) so 80,000 and Pedia PF: 25000 (2) so 5000. So much numbers that I am trully in debt with my parent, not just because they are parents that i am forever in debt but with the money they've spent, I don't know how will I be able to repay them.

Since we were residing in my parent's house. ( a separate apartment type room was built for us again by my parents), it always ends up them supporting us even financially whenever times really gets tough for us. From medicines, vaccinations, looking for a nanny, payment of some utility bills, I really can't count how much my mom helped me on my married life. Even when my ex husband needs to undergo heart surgery, my mom didn't ven hesitate to give (not lend) us money with in a short notice.

I'm reaching out to those who were fortunate and has an excess of any amount to give. I'm planning to relocate my family to the province so that expenses will be cheaper and be able to escape the fuzz in Manila. My parent will look after my kids while I continue working here in Manila in order to provide. I would stay in the province for good once I get a job in the province with a pay not lower than what I am currently getting. As for my parents, I always dreamed of taking them to different tourist spots in PH or other country if I would be capable once I have my work as a token of my appreciation. Apprently, due to the number of responsibiltes and expenses that I have to priorities, I cant even give them an all expense paid trip to show how greatful I am to be ther child.

Problems were hitting me blow by blow this past few months that's why I took time to ask for help through this website. And i think it would be healthy for me to airout my feelings as well even just by writing it n this website. Hope you can find time to read this and help me if possible.

Regards and thanks in advance.