My Gastric bypass

Please help me get a better and healthier life so I can be able to be there for my family as much as a "normal" mother can...

I have been overweight practically all of my life after I hit puberty. I keep away from unhealthy food and drinks, exercise regularly and try to keep active in my every day life. I haven't owned a TV for8 years now, because it made me lazy. I've tried everything to loose weight, but it seems like my body don't want to respond. So now when I've passed the age of 32 and gained 35 kg during my first pregnancy, I have realized that my only option to ever reach normal weight is to have a Gastric bypass.

I can't stand it anymore! I love myself for who I am, but not the body that I've been trapped in for 18 years. My husband loves every inch of me, but understands the pain I'm in and supports my decision. Unfortunately we don't have any possibility to save the money ourselves, due to a weak financial situation. My husband lost his job on the same day as our son was born and I haven't been able to work for two years due to my health. I don't want our son to grow up with a mother that can't keep up with him and be a healthy rawmodel, even though I work so hard that I can taste my own blood.

Please help me!