HELLO, WORLD. First of all, thank you for clicking and reading this. For safety reasons, my identity is a secret but other than that, you can learn all about me and my work at my blog (the link is listed below. I will be ecstatic if you can check it out later). It's an introduction about the real me, my dream to make a difference in the world before I die and all my campaigns to achieving it. But I'm struggling to stay alive, let alone achieve it because some of my problems might even kill me before I can do anything. So, I'm raising this fund to help me live and make my mark before I die. And its success depends solely on the kindness of strangers because I have no one else to turn for help. I'm alone here. So, I would be eternally grateful if you could find it in your heart to help me. Or else, I'm doomed. I will start off with my dream before going into my problems, so please read until the end to fully understand how deep the shit hole that I'm in.
I see the world and think differently. Also, I'm an outsider all my life. So over the years, I accumulated all these unique ideas and stories that I want to share with the world before I die. There maybe some benefits to them and the world might want to hear them out. I already ventured into an online t-shirt designing as my starting point. If it's successful, I will venture into graphic novels, fiction books, TV & movie scripts, etc next to bring them all out. The slideshow above shows few of my marks that I can afford to create for now. The rest, I promise, will be even better but you can see the potential here. That I can do something wondrous with my life and my marks if given a chance. Make a real difference in the world. Do good. I already assigned part of my profit to be donated to a variety of charities depending on the cause that I'm promoting. In the future, I will do more. I just want to know before I die that I made a difference in the world and that I mattered. But I need someone to believe in me and my dream first. Because I need a proper training from a real learning institution to create the rest of my marks. All I have now are bits and pieces that I got from YouTube but there's only so much I can learn from it. First year of illustration course and some allowances (food, bills, transport, etc) that I will need while I'm learning (I have to do it full time) is all I'm asking. The skills and the extra time that I acquire will help me create a few more to make this venture successful enough to continue on my own. Because achieving this dream is vital for me to fix most of the problems that I'm having especially the ones listed below and open up the door to all my other unfulfilled dreams. Like migrate to a free country that doesn't persecute gay people because I am one and I'm not safe here. I have no future here too because I can't be myself, fall in love or start a family. These dreams are the only reason why I'm still alive. Hope. But it slipping away after so many years of trying and I don't have much time left because of my problems. So, please help me get my foot in the door while I still can.
1) Health - I contracted hepatitis b when I was a child. I'm a chronic carrier now. And there's no cure for it. So I don't know how much time I have. At first, everything was fine with me because I led a healthy lifestyle. But two years ago, I start experiencing all types of pains at every part of my body constantly. Some are coming from my nervous system. Also, I'm getting unexplained bruises, never healing bruises, swollen lymph nodes (armpit, back), red spots, itchiness, numbness, wrinkled, darkening toes' skin, low and weak urine output despite drinking a lot of water, bowel problem, etc. It's like everything falling apart with my body at the same time and I'm not sure if it's because of my hepatitis or something else. I also did a blood and urine test a while ago that ruled out UTI or diabetes (normal glucose level) but there were red flags with my kidneys (my ketones, creatinine, etc. were very high). But there's no way for me to investigate further or do anything about it because I couldn't afford it. So, I need some fund to find out and fix it (if it's something else) or delays it (if it's hepatitis b) before they kill me. And in addition to that, I have another problem that needs immediate surgery. It's quite humiliating to say what it is even under anonymity. All I can say is that it will cause me excruciating pain, blood clots, infection, gangrene, sepsis and even death if I don't fix it soon. So, the fund will go for that too.
2)Danger - Currently, I’m being harassed by a bunch of drug addicts in front of my house. I have tried everything but nothing is working. Asked them politely, didn't work. Confrontation will definitely end badly for me. One of them just come out from jail for stabbing his mother (on her shoulder, she lives) and another one just went in for slashing my neighbor's, a mute lady, throat (she lives too). And the rest have all sorts of other criminal records too. Asked my other neighbors to band together to scare them off but they are scared instead. Some moved, others turn a blind eye. Called the cops but they are doing nothing. Besides, the first time they came, these addicts fled, only to return when the coast is clear. And all I got was my house vandalized, urinated and defecated. I can't relocate either because I couldn't afford it. So the fund is also for me to set up a security system (CCTV included) to deter them from doing drugs here and to protect me and my house as I’m living alone. Please help me stay alive until I can afford to get the hell out of here.
3)AvPD - I was abused by my family when I was a child. And these painful experiences have damaged me badly. Now I'm having problems like AvPD (Avoidant Personality Disorder), to name a few. I avoid people because I have problem interacting directly with people. And it doesn't help that I'm abnormal too. It's like I don't know how to be a human. Since child, my brain have problems processing stuff like normal people do, so I can't communicate like one either. Having a hard time fitting in. Have no connection with anyone on this planet. I don't even leave my house much. And it's hard for me to have a job because of it. So I'm doing this t-shirt designing venture to support myself because it fit me like a glove. It utilize my talents, I'm passionate about it, it's AvPD-friendly and I can show my marks to the world anonymously. But because it took me longer than I anticipated to learn the craft, I ran out of money to continue this venture and support myself until it lift off properly. So help me live my life despite having AvPD by helping me with the dream that I mention above.
4)Lifeline - I'm ashamed to say it but I'm not doing so well in my life. I feel like I'm cursed. Because everything that has happened and is happening to me feels like they are spiraling me down toward my humiliating crash and burn demise. Hurdle at every step of the way making everything harder than it should be. Problems after problems and I'm drowning in them. And everywhere I go, every phase of my life, I always get people who make my life worse than it already is (abused by my own family or those addicts, for example) even though I always keep to myself and don't disturb people. Trouble finds me always no matter what I do. Shits happen to me always. Physically, since birth, my body has all kind of health problems and it keep on adding until I'm in grave danger now. Psychologically, I'm a damaged good because of my abused childhood and my abnormality. All through my life, I only know hardships. Nothing ever goes easy for me. Everything is always against me. Everything always beyond my control. I never get any break. The walls are closing in and nothing I do, works. And I always alone. No one to turn to for help because my inability to make any human connection. And no one can see me or hear me because I'm nobody. And all these giving me severe depression and suicidal thoughts. Because I can’t help myself but feel like I am a mistake here. That I wasn't supposed to be here in the first place. And all these are actually signs from above, trying to rectify its mistake, me. And the little voice in my head keeps telling me that it only gonna get worse from here and that I should end it now before I hit the ground hard and that the only solution to all of my problems is death. I try to keep them at the bay. But every morning, I wake up asking myself, why bother? Because there's no more strength and zest for life in me to go on anymore. Even a small simple task feels like an impossible task nowadays. And it's like there's a huge boulder on my shoulder and I can't do anything else. All I can do is carry it as long as I can but I fear, one day, not too far off, I will not be able to anymore and it will crush me to dead. So with no pride, option and energy left in me anymore, I am asking you, please save me before it's too late.
Sorry to lay all these on you but I really can't do this on my own anymore and I have no one else to turn to for help. So, I'm asking strangers for help. Besides, I believe people will help a struggling stranger. It's what makes us human. I just hope that I'm right.
I need at least $10,000 to get out the shit hole that I'm in and continue on my journey to do something great in my life and the world with my marks.
|$10,000 - 12% (GGF fee) = $8,800 - $3000 (1st year tuition fee) = $5,800 - $3000 (1 year's living expenses while learning full time) = $ 2,800 - $300 (security system) = $2,500 (for the humiliating surgery + find out, fix and delay my health problems)|
I wish I had the money or some other way but I can never seem to get the money that I needed. I wasn't born into money and have been dirt poor ever since. Broken, damaged, too flawed and very down on luck to accumulate one either.
So, how can you help?
Spare me 5 - 10 dollars, that's all. You wouldn't even feel the pinch of it. But then, share my campaign with your friends and family. Hopefully, they will do the same too. A small thread of kindness from many people when join together become one strong rope that will rescue me and my dream before I run out of time. And if you feeling even more generous, perhaps buy my apparels instead? Because if there are only donations made, I will surely be lying dead in the gutter somewhere before I get the money due to this website's very long clearing period. I'm sorry 😔. And last but not least, if you decide to help me, thank you from the bottom of my heart and I promise you this, I will pay the kindness that you have shown me forward to many people by many fold, one day, somehow.
Twitter (Follow me here as I bring out the rest of my marks. Also, there's a special tweet I made for this campaign that you can retweet)
Tumblr (My world domination manifesto. Read all about me and my marks here)
Store (Check out or buy my apparels here)
Instagram (if you bought one, take a picture and tagged it #millionsofmarks because it would make my day)
*Sorry, no Facebook. never use my personal page but on my business page, my marks touches on social and current issues. So, they banned me*