Living a Dream

I am born and raised in the Philippines, born on the year 1991, now, I am currently 23, still doesn't have a job because I am afraid of not getting any jobs with all of my job eperiences I got when I was just young, I was a person who doesn't take things seriously, I even dropped out of college, saying to myself that working is another option for me, several years after, I am not able to save money. I want to go back to college now and start all over again, "this time i'll be better.", that is what I said to my mom, but, the family isn't stable even after those times I was out of school, since my sister is studying, still the same financial status, I was devastated to hear that I cannot go back to college yet even I am ready to get serious with life.

I have a vision impairment on my left eye, it barely can see something clear, the only eye that I am using to see is my right eye, which, to tell you the honest truth, is slowly getting blurry as well, the only thing that I have to see the world. I am using contact lens with a high grade, and without wearing contact lenses or glasses, I won't see anything in front of me. I just hope I won't lose my vision when I am already in my dream country, as I get home from work, kissing the cheecks of my wife, and hugging my little kids, living in a small house with a simple life, which I wanted.

I never wanted to be rich, I just want to live simple in a country that I know I will be happy, but my family cannot support me for this, the only support I can get from them are just words of hope, and it made me cry as I type this part....

I feel very hopeless, I want to help the family but the option I have, still seems hard to reach...is there any hope for me?

Going back when I started out working in Call centers here in the Philippines, I have quit college due to my financial status, the family was having a hard time paying the bills in college, I was affected while I was in college, haring my mom and dad talk on the phone while arguing about money, and hearing you mom say to