The feeling of reaching almost the end of this jorney can't be explained, but the feeling of almost not being able to finish it I can, a feeling of losing time, money and energy a waste of many years studying and in the end not being able to finish for a little problem. To explain how it happen I'll have to explain the system I'm in. Any Student in wich the family's income doesnt reach certain ammount will receive a scolarship in the ammount depended on how "little" the household makes. The problem is that scolarship has a "minimum grade" and limit of years for wich the student will lose all help if he doenst fill them.
In my case the Bachelor is made of 3 years study but wont be able to apply for scolarship unless I do 60% of all classes in the year before and to a maximum of 4 years, in reallity I only receive scolarship for 1 year, the 1st one, now that I am in my 5th year my household lost 90% of it's income due to 2 of the 3 "money makers" losing their job, the 3rd one is a pension so little no one could live with that.
In the last 4 years, as i said before, one year I had scolarship the others no because of my own self stupidity and I dont blame no one for it besides me and myself, This last year I wont be able to pay my University Fee + stay that are 1067€ + around 1040€ respectively.
I wont be able to apply for the scolarship because the 4 years passed since my first year even if i only had 1 year of actual scolarship they count all years even the ones I didnt have.
Reasons for the "slow study", for the same reason of not having enough income to fulfill my academic goal I was obligated to give up on my studies for 2 years in wich I tried to find a job and pay for the studies, I earned a little but now it is at the end. After 2 years of "working" could not find much time to study and comming back to some 3rd year classes and some 2nd year classes was harder than ever
Reasons I cant get other way of funding: Since what happen in the beginning of this year I've been trying to get a bank loan and always fail to do so, most of the banks dont accept me because of my family situation and say they cant see how I will be able to start paying the loan soon.
Now something about me: I'm a "country" young man, and come from a hard working work class family. I am studying Informatic Engineering and want to someday manage a high-end Informatics lab Department. Doesnt matter how hard things get I will always work my hardest and never give up.