Last Chance to Live

.....I don't know how to describe my problem ,even i am not interested to show my personal problem for money But this is my last chance to live again ,First time i Started a Fundraising campaign to raise money . Day knight i am thinking for suicide then i thought if suicide is last option for me why i will not try for a crowdfunding .. Now i am facing big financial problem in my life where i can not go back an correct my mistakes . Now where i am living there is no govt job or any private job , but i manage to get a job as HOTEL Receptionist (puri , odisha ,india ) but salary is very low around 6000 rs (100$) approx monthly , i almost spend 4000 rs000rs (70$) monthly for travel and food . there is nothing left for saving , my father expired 15 yrs ago , i have one brother and one sister and my mom . so i need to money for my family , then i started borrowing money and thinking things will be change , when i get a govt job . BUT in my are there is no govt job available , I need to 700000 rs (10000$) fix my financial problem . MY english is bad , so i cant describe my situation in clear word . Thank you