Julie’s shoulder replacement

This is not something i am proud of doing but pain, depression and frustration has bought me to this point. I need a total shoulder replacement, my bones are dying and crumbling into my chest. Surgery is needed, unfortunately there is a 2 year waiting time, I have had to stop work as a disability support worker and find I cannot afford the decimal insurance. I am on high dosage of pain medication and am finding that I am becoming depressed and fear I will not make it through the two year waiting period.