I Need Help Getting Back On Track

I don´t like asking strangers for help as I know there are thousands of people in much worse situations than I am, however, I am quite desperate and really could do with some help to get my life back on track. I will try anything right now, as I am basically flat broke with very little income and a lot of family bills to pay.

I have worked around the clock for many years to build up an online business. Where I live, there are not many opportunities but I was doing really well with what I was creating online. 10 years ago, I had a social network / chat site, it was very busy and I earned good money from Adsense. That was destroyed by competitor spam and I lost my appeal with Google, so my website and entire business disappeared over night. Facebook appeared, Google+ and Twitter, I had no chance, even if I managed to rank again, I could never compete.

I started again from scratch, this time, building Android apps. I used what money I had left to study Android and began to build and launch apps. It was a success for the first year, however, Google once again decided that I was doing something wrong and banned my developer account, I lost all my work and all my apps. Their reason was untrue, I appealed but it took over 1 year to win. By that time, Android had progressed so far, I couldn´t afford to learn again. At the time, during the appeal I had various bar jobs, built and sold some starter websites and did some labouring work. I do have a bad back due to a car accident, so bar work and labouring can get quite sore plus I am not very good at either!

I have built various websites over the years, sold most of them and kept the ones I thought would work. However, due to totally bad judgement on my side, I sold the wrong ones and kept the wrong ones. Google are constantly all over whatever I do, so ranking anything is never going to happen. I see competitors able to pay Adwords to go above my keywords in search results, however, I am also banned from Adwords for promoting a website deemed against Googles terms, but my competitors in exact same niche are able to promote.

What I want to do and need to do, at 40 years old, is change what I do as a job. I would love to get offline but it is the only thing I can understand. I need to go back to learning Android or iOS, however, the time spent doing that is costly, as I need to learn again all the new technology. I have a wife and son and have rent, water, electric, food, all the normal bills and running in debt each month. Like many people do, I am getting further and further in debt and its worrying the life out of me. I would love to get onto the property ladder and have something to leave my wife and son, but at the moment, rent is crippling us, its dead money and I cannot get a mortgage as I dont have any deposit. I thought at 40 I would have all this sorted and should have if Google had been fair and I had planned things a lot better.

I don´t expect anything from this but anything is worth a try. I just need some help getting out of a rut and getting my work back together so I can turn things around for my family and I. I have had good money in the past but I am also quite generous and also quite stupid at the same time. My mistakes are my own, I do blame Google for a lot of things that have gone wrong, I find them unfair with what they have done to me over the past but it is my fault for choosing to work in the job I chose and spent so many years learning in.

If you have been in the same situation, I think you can understand what its like and the worry. At the moment, I just cant see a way out. Nothing I am doing is working. I need time but cannot afford time, however, if I continue this path, I will lose everything in a short space of time. if I could get some time, I can get back on track I am sure. I do have lots of ideas, I do know what I want in life and I do work very hard and prepared to work even harder.

Thank you for reading. Please only help me if you are in a position to help. Please also look at the other people before considering helping me. There are lots more people in greater need than what I am. I have my health, I have my family others don´t even have that. I don´t expect anything from anyone but if I do get anything it will not only be a surprise but also a great help. Thank you.