I have betrayed my family and f****d up my life

My name is Ivan and I am 17. My parents are divorced and I live with my mother and my sister. My mother works very hard every day to get ahead. She is a cleaner, and some days she can work up to 16 hours. Seeing this situation, I felt that I had to earn money in some way and that my mother worked less. And that's when I came across the game. I started earning money, the first few weeks went well, until one day I started to lose and lose, until I ended up with zero. But that's not the worst, the worst is that I had already developed addiction to the game, so I decided to enter more money to play. Everything that came in lost it, I lost all the money in the bank account, I lost all my savings, and here comes the worst. My mother had full confidence in me and she told me everything, I knew where the emergency savings were, it was 12 thousand euros that my mother had saved all her life to pay for my sister's and mine's studies, for months in which there would be enough money, etcetera. That money was separated from a thousand in a thousand euros, and every time I lost I entered a thousand euros and promised that I would not play again and that I would look for a job to return everything I had lost, but it always fell. I felt horribly wrong. I cried in the toilet. I got to have suicidal thoughts.

I had lost all my family's money, and my mother did not know anything, she had hidden everything. At that moment the bills began to arrive, and the bank account remained negative. I no longer had savings to use, I did not have any money. I did not find an exit and started to get into loans, I began to indebt my whole family. Every time I asked for a new loan, he promised me that he would treat me and that he would start working to recover stability, but no, he would relapse again. I currently owe more than 6 thousand euros in loans.

When my mother found out, I could not believe it. I hear her cry in her room. He does not trust me anymore, and I understand. He sees no way out of all this, and I do not see it either if it is not this way. My mother has had to borrow money from friends to pay the bills. The debts grow. See my mother suffer kills me inside.

Please, I ask for the money to return to have a life, the gambling addiction is a very serious disease. I ask for the money to be able to pay the bills, the studies of my sister and mine, to be able to treat my addiction. Please.